While I’m writing this I just wanted to say how sincerely I appreciate your putting the Wednesday meetings on line for those of us who are on the same path but far away without any sense of community. I would like to thank you for giving us an opportunity to share your meetings with all of you that have the gift to be able to be there in person every week. Karin

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Here is the transcript of the 12-23-09 meeting.

Guardians: You bring…yes, yes, Eloheim says don’t use words that express duality. But we are not very good at the words thing, so we will simply say you bring good energy tonight. Not much that needs shifting.

Your hearts are baskets. Baskets where you hold the truth of you. Carry your basket with your chin up and shoulders back and let it be how you lead into your life. It is the leading edge of you. Yes.

Visionaries: OK. The time grows short. We know it is true that there is no such thing as time but from your experience there still is. From your paradigm you still operate within the knowingness of the time stream and it is facilitating our conversation with you to just use that terminology at this time. So, time grows short. Time grows short and it grows dense or thick or condensed, maybe is the word, where your ability to interact with the rest of your creation. You as your complete self interacting with the rest of your creation is being modified, transformed, created in a new way, it’s being shifted and changed, it’s being developed, even. As you start to interact with the rest of your creation—note we didn’t say the rest of the world or the rest of the people, we said the rest of your creation—your experience of your creation is becoming more and more under your purview. More and more under your direct influence.

It has always been true that you create your reality. However, some of the creation of the reality that you’re experiencing was being done from an unconscious position and some of it was being done from a soul-based position. But as you bring your soul into your body—ensouling your body—as you do this process you start to become more of an effective or immediate creator in your world. The creation that you design is being fueled by your soul’s energy and perspective and it’s being facilitated by your awareness of your physicality, and those two things combined make for an opportunity to have an interaction with your creations that’s new and that interaction with your creations is allowing you to have more influence over the physicality that you experience.

This physicality that you experience can come across many, many, many different ways. The one you always love to look at is instantaneous manifestation, but more interestingly and more often you experience immediate manifestation, which we like to use for the terminology of you want something and it shows up a little while later—and a little while is open to exploration and interpretation, of course. But it’s this idea that you’re ready for a certain way of life, a certain way of being, a certain experience in your day and those things start to line up—what do you say? You get your ducks in a row, kind of a thing, where things just start to line up. You start to encounter things, creations, that show you the truth of you as you go into the world with the truth of you in front, as the Guardians expressed just at the beginning here.

You take the truth of you out, the truth of you is reflected. It’s been taught for many years by Eloheim that you are walking around experiencing your internal dynamic externalized to bring your attention to things that you are ready to see and pay attention to. Now, your external view is reflecting the dynamics, the dynamic nature, of your internal process because as you infuse your internal process with your soul’s energy and you expand out of your mind’s limited perspective into your soul’s very, very expansive perspective, your creations in the world have to fall in line with that. And the more consistently you are choosing for the truth of you, you’re choosing for “I don’t know anything,” you’re choosing for the completeness of you to be expressed, then your physical surroundings have to start reflecting that inner truth. This is one of the great ways you have to affect your external circumstances, to know and see and experience being a creator, is to have your internal journey shipshape. To have your internal journey clarified, to have your internal journey trigger- and baggage-free.

Now, it doesn’t mean you don’t have baggage or get triggered. It means that when you do you use your tools to clear those things. They don’t stick around and then act as a creative force. The only creative force is you experiencing the completeness of you internally and then emanating that into the world, which allows for the complete experience of the world to be revealed to you. The beauty of this is that you start to see the world as a much grander, more interesting and dynamic place because instead of your mind’s limited perspective being the creation force, you have the soul’s expansive perspective being the creation force, therefore giving yourself far more expanded experiences to enjoy.

We haven’t thought of a better reason why you should keep your internal journey shipshape. For a long time it was just so you could stand yourself a bit better. But now we’re starting to see that you are consistent enough in your internal processing that it’s starting to show in your external world. And this is going to continue to intensify through the January portal—portal’s a good enough word—transformational time that you’re coming into. So, keeping your eye on the ball, keeping your attention where it does you the most transformational good—and that is when triggers, fears, core emotion, habits, all of these things that we’ve addressed individually—when these things appear in you, you handle them, you process them, you transform them, so that the moment you’re creating from is a moment of transformation rather than a moment of habit, trigger, pain, or fear.

This is the path you’re on. You’re well situated on this path. You’re well embraced on this path. You’re well ingrained, even, on this path. Focused, intent, ready, prepared and now it’s just a matter of being consistent, moment to moment. And what we’re looking for is something other than a moment of it,and then a bunch of unconsciousness, and then oops!, another moment. You’ve had a lot of practice now and the request we’re making is that your moments are closer together; that you are able to run this kind of a consciousness, this kind of an attention. The changes you want to see in your external life will more readily appear when you attend to your internal life consistently.

Eloheim: Wow, hello! You know that feeling you have when you first wake up and you go “Uhh.” That’s what happens when the Visionaries go and then we try to come in. Okay. We’re here now. All right then. Questions, thoughts, comments, commentary? How are you doing with your fingertip tool?

Comment: Very well.

Eloheim: Tell us about it.

Comment: With my pinky and finances, when I first started, going left to right, the things I would think about had trouble going through, that I was trying to transform, would go through my system—I used to believe you had to work hard—then it went to my heart chakra… money comes through in infinite ways. Eventually, I could get the right information into the left side and it would start to flow. Then my husband made some money unexpectedly and my friends gave me a $20 bill and then I thought, “OK, I’m in financial flow.” It’s enough to feel the smooth flow of energy through the system. It’s a fabulous tool.

Eloheim: We’re glad it’s working for you. One thing to remember is we started off with it talking about the specific fingers being part of a specific energetic but you don’t have to use it that way. Make it your own. We were just trying to give you some kind of structure to start off with. But, yeah, if that’s working keep doing it.

Comment: It was cumbersome for me at first. I was amazed at how unwilling I was to start a new process.

Comment: It was powerful for me that night. On the way home that night I felt like I was one with everyone I’ve ever encountered. An amazing experience. I’ve just been so busy making money I haven’t had time to use the tool.

Eloheim: It’s nice to hear that you’re in financial flow. Let’s just make sure you stay in spiritual flow, too. Sometimes it’s nice to come in balance, back and forth, back and forth. It’s like a pendulum. Sometimes you’re more in the world and then other times you’re more into your spiritual thing but we’re looking for that balance where you’re in the world but not of the world. Meaning the world can’t tell you who you are.

Response: I’ve just been tired. But that doesn’t mean I’m not trying to be conscious.

Eloheim: You haven’t had time to do the fingertip tool but you haven’t let go of being conscious. We’re really glad to hear that clarification. Veronica’s been doing it at night before she goes to bed, just laying in bed. She even put her hands, because she’s cold, of course—if she puts her hands like this they’re not under the covers—so she kind of just tucked them under the pillow but put the fingertips together and worked with it in that way. And at red lights, rather than sitting there thinking about whatever you might be thinking about at a red light, she did the fingertips. Red lights, because what else are you doing for two, three, four minutes, and it’s interesting to see if you can get the energy flowing when you’re in a traffic-y holiday driving kind of scene. Anybody else want to share?

Comment: I tried it while in the water and I tried it while dancing. I could feel the energy just going through.

Comment: It evened out my nervous system. I don’t have that jittery stuff that I’ve been calling hot flashes. It’s not been an issue this past week.

Eloheim: And how often did you find yourself doing it?

Comment: Just one solid time a day, but really concentrating on it. Even just after the first time I felt such an inner adjustment.

Eloheim: It’s a good one.

Comment: When I left here I was high as a kite for at least 24 hours. I was blissed out in a way that I wasn’t used to and then I kind of crashed. And even after the crash I was still able to get some kind of help. It’s a really useful tool.

Eloheim: For Veronica, it was very, very revealing, so we’re going to tell on her a little bit because it was kind of entertaining for us. She could feel the energy, not even attaching a lot of words to it, just feeling the energy. It moved very easily up the left arm—not surprising, she couldn’t work with us if she wasn’t able to move energy through that side of her body. Across the heart chakra, no problem. Down the right arm, no problem. Get to the elbow, nothing happened from there on. She couldn’t feel anything from the right elbow to the fingertips on the right hand. It was just as though it wasn’t even there. So she would start again, start again. That went on for a while and then finally she started to feel some movement in that lower part of the arm and then that went on for a while, but really feeling like it was thick, almost like pushing those orange ice cream things… push-ups. And then she finally got it to where it was flowing and then the sensation she shared with us was it almost was like she was hula-hooping. Like it was whoosh, whoosh. And some of those hula hoops have those little beads in them so they make that kind of fun sound, so it even had a little sound effect thing going on. And like you shared, Richard, it wasn’t flat. It had a sense of tilt to it. It had some personality, the movement of that.

Oh, and then what happened was she got completely tranced-out. It put her in a completely trance-y state for two days. So she was all tranced-out on the couch for a couple of days. And so she would read her book, and then put her book down, do the finger tip tool, get completely tranced out, read her book, so it was an interesting couple of days. And what we just kept reminding her, and we want to remind all of you, is this is about moving energy within your field. It’s about getting comfortable feeling your energy move in your field. It’s not about outcomes. It’s not even about changing anything, although things are changing and you’re having outcomes, but it’s not goal-oriented. This is experiential, so that you can get clear on where those places are in you that [the energy is] stuck, or those places where it wants to be a sine wave, or places where it just doesn’t move at all.

Because what we’re looking at is getting you more comfortable with your energy moving within your field because soon enough, you’ll be able to use that energy to move things outside of your field. What’s that going to look like? We don’t know. It will be very fun though, because you guys like super hero powers. So the idea that you get that energy going and then what happens when you disconnect it and then you move it out with your right hand or out of the right side of your body.

The other thing that happened with Veronica—and we want to know if this happened with any of you—is the circle started to get smaller and smaller and smaller until she just felt it circling inside of her torso. Did you guys have that at all? So, don’t make it be something. Let it show you what else it wants to show you. Because what you’re really getting at is feeling energy move within the body. Feeling you having an influence on the physical movement of energy and the sensation of moving energy in your body. So, anybody have anything that hurts tonight? Anything that you have that hurts or is stiff or not working the way you want it to work, you can do the same tool within that part of your body. So an ankle or a knee or a back or a neck, just let the energy… We’ll use the knee for an example; come out the right side and down in the left side and just feel the energy circulate. Just in its own little area, just do a little mini-version of moving that energy because you see the point of this tool is to give you more influence over the movement of your energy in the world and in your body.

So, we talked about finances and relationship and housing and whatever else we talked about, health, we think, those are all well and good and important, but that’s just the very, very skin-of-the-apple kind of stuff here. Where you find yourself needing to move energy in your body, and then if some of your random household appliances decide to act up or your computer or your phone or your toaster or whatever else you guys have that’s broken—someone told us something that was broken—same thing. Now does it have a left or right? Hold it or put your hands on it or picture it, you don’t even have to be in front of it because this is energy, remember. We’ll just use Veronica’s water bottle as an example. So we have a water bottle—so you just picture it, you’re holding it—so you let the energy come out your right hand, through it or around it, you can go around, you can bring it all the way through if you wanted to by putting something between your hands and bring it all the way through. That would be a great way to do it because then, of course, you’re bringing your heart chakra more involved, but you can also just see it within that same sphere, so it’s circulating right around in that space. Either way, try both, see which one feels like you’re moving the most energy. What gives you the sense of well-being or a sense of relaxation or a sense of, “Oh, yeah” or aha. This is you also learning your feedback mechanism of your body when you’re being informed that you’re having an effect energetically on something.

Because see, you’re creating a dialogue in energy and you see how hard sometimes it is for us to find language to describe energetics. So you have to create your own vocabulary and by practicing on things like your knee is sore or your tooth hurts or your neck is stiff, in addition to practicing with your fingertips so you’re moving a bigger section of energy, you’re giving yourself all kinds of opportunities to create a dialogue and a vocabulary so that you know how to move and transform energies. You know how like back in the day when we talked about your guides conversing with you, you wanted to know how they sounded or how they felt. The medium goal of this is so that, okay, the first goal of this is so that you can feel your energy, so that you can safely without triggering your “I’m going to get dead because every time I stood out in the crowd before I got whacked,” so you can safely feel your energy move without being in fear for your life. That’s why we had you touch your fingertips.

Now, if we branch that out to interacting with stuff that only has to do with you, your car or your toaster, your knee, your head, whenever, then you can start having an interaction which creates a dialogue and a vocabulary of feelings or sounds or sensations or smells, we don’t know what your vocabulary is going to be, about actually having an impact energetically on another thing. Then we’re going to work into what it’s like to have an energetic impact on things that aren’t of you or that aren’t in your safe little world where nobody knows what you’re doing. So keep doing it, we would advise, keep doing it and let it start to interact with you and show you what it can do. Beyond, beyond.

Now everybody that did it could feel the energy moving, right? We thought you’d be able to because you’re moving your energy within yourself. See, if we had said make that stuffed animal move across the room, you guys would’ve tried, we know you would’ve tried we believe you would’ve tried, but the chance of that actually working out and having the impact you wished is slim because you are not yet ready to expand it outside of where we’re at. Because the thing that happens is if all of a sudden you start moving objects with your mind not only do you stand out in a crowd but it brings up lots and lots of fears and lots of insecurities and lots of oh, my Gods, and all of those, of course, have to be dealt with with the tools that we’ve been talking about for the last year. That’s why we had to start with the tools. So you could have oh my Gods and deal with them. So maybe on your December 31st party, maybe you can have just a little bit of time where you see what it’s like to fool around with your energy with each other. Like hot potato, but without the potato. Who knows. See if you guys feel like that would be fun. It might be. It might not be. “Ooh, get your energy off me. Creepy.” Anybody else want to say anything about the fingertip tool before we change subjects? No. Anybody want to ask a question about anything specific?

Question: I don’t know if I’m creating money or if this is just unethical? I bought 25 of these things at the store, I got to the car and I thought the bill wasn’t high enough so I went back and I said look you only charged me for one of these. And then I though did I just screw up? I was creating money in my life, but no, it was unethical. I have a bill of $1600 for a Yellow Page ad. I opened up the bill the other day and they just forgave the $1,600. That one seemed a little more clear but then I was wondering if I should call them and tell them.

Eloheim: It’s interesting because one of them has a face and one of them is a company. Because one of them is a person that you actually looked in their eyes and one of them is just a company. When you say they forgave it, you have a bill that says you owe $1,600 and the next bill says you owe $400.

Comment: It showed up as a payment, a credit of $1600 and I didn’t make that payment.

Eloheim: Well there are so many different ways to look at it and part of what’s going on is it’s like an energetic soup. You’ve got a soup—minestrone—so you dip your spoon in. Are you going to get a carrot, are you going to get a bean, are you going to get a noodle, are you going to get broth? So on some level there is a potentiated space here is what we’re seeing. And on some level there’s the reality that the company just said the economic times are hard and we get that people can’t pay their bills. So maybe they did just credit you and say please pay us something and they’re not going to chase you down.

Comment: I’ve heard about people just calling in with lots on money owed on their credit card, they the company they’re never going to be able to pay this and the credit card company forgives half of it.

Eloheim: In this Yellow Pages case it really does feel energetically like they’ve made this as a choice. It doesn’t feel like it was a mistake. It doesn’t feel like there’s money credited to the wrong account. It doesn’t feel like it’s anything like that. But the interesting part of it is how you’re dealing with it. And you’re like, “I gotta get this right.” Yeah, it feels very much like this is just a question mark for you and you brought up a great example.

Comment: I have one more.

Eloheim: Okay, give us the other example.

Comment: RE: a TV that doesn’t work. I brought in my TV to a repair company to fix, but they couldn’t do it, and charged me $350. I got a new TV from Mitsubishi for free. Now the repair company wants the used TV back, and they already made $350 off me. I was sort of pissed about that. Then they called and said they can’t find the check, can I send them another one.

Eloheim: It’s such an interesting picture. Now, instead of looking like minestrone soup it looks like a bird’s nest, you know how birds can weave all those different little things together and somehow it makes that beautiful shape. So now you’ve woven these interesting things together, so there’s a variety of questions that are coming up. The questions are, like you said, “Is this manifesting money? Am I manifesting money? Am I manifesting my needs met?” because in one case you got a new TV. “Am I manifesting opportunities where I’m taking advantage of people or inappropriately taking advantage of their errors or mistakes.” We just want to look at what the thread is here. Hold on. You tend to bring doozies. This is a good one.

The biggest one that you’re showing us right now is the one with the TV maybe because you told it last and because you’re a person who does a similar kind of occupation, you’re pissed off at their sort of lack of integrity of the occupation. Like, “I do service calls and I wouldn’t do that kind of a shitty service call.” So that’s coloring this more than you want it to. So, their lack of “professional integrity” that you’re perceiving doesn’t mean that it changes how you operate in your business. So be careful that you don’t let that mix up in here because there’s too much other good stuff that’s going on, interesting stuff, to have that kind of an old pattern where somebody else’s behavior starts to tell you who you are.

We don’t see that you’re slipping your morals. What we see you saying is “You do a similar kind of job that I do. I would never pull that kind of crap, so when you pull that kind of crap it kind of makes me look bad.” There’s like this energetic where you’re connecting your professional image to all service people. Used car salesman, right? They have this stigma that they’re all shysters. Well, they’re not all shysters. Maybe some are. So there’s that same kind of a stigma that you’re seeing how these service people didn’t treat you right and they must treat other people the same way and, “I’m a service person and I don’t treat people that way so why are you casting a shadow on my profession?” So there’s this kind of a thing that you’ve got going on. “And you’re going to make money off my old TV.”

So, you’re kind of charged about that aspect of it. So we would suggest you let that go as best you can. Like “I am not…” whatever. “Your strange decisions about how to be service people don’t tell me anything about my profession or my business other than I don’t want anybody to feel they get treated this way by me and I don’t treat people that way.” That’s in the way of the big lesson or the big information here. We would say that if you’re going to give them your old TV they need to give you the check or not find your check. One or the other. “You don’t get both. I don’t pay you for a repair that doesn’t work and you get the old TV.” So it makes sense that the check’s lost because energetically that’s out of balance. Because you’re right. On some level—“oh cool, her TV broke. Good. We got paid to not fix it and we get her old TV and she got a new TV so she should be happy.”

Comment: Exactly. And they said that to me.

Eloheim: You can say, “I am happy with my new TV,” and “I’m unhappy that I had to pay for my old TV not to get fixed.” They’re two different subjects. And you know that. But the, ‘I’m mad at the service person being an asshole service person,” is in the way of you seeing that energetic clear enough. To speak without having a chip on your shoulder—ah, see we just felt it click. You get that part? TV issue solved.

Of course the 25 items, they didn’t charge you for 25 items, of course you go back in and you say, “Dude you didn’t charge me.” You’ve got to do that. Not because it’s face-to-face, but it’s because you would want the same consideration. You’re all airheads often enough and you’re not in your bodies and you’re confused and you’re goofy, you would want somebody to say, “I think we need to look at this again.” You would want that kind of consideration so that one is pretty easy.

The Yellow Pages one is the really interesting one. Not only is it the most money, but it’s the nameless, faceless corporation. And, “I’m not getting any business off of that damned Yellow Page ad, anyway,” and all those sorts of things that you can think of and, “In this economy how can they expect people to pay the same price as they used to pay?” and all that stuff comes up. So what we would say is, you’ve got to really look at your attitude about your Yellow Page ad, your attitude about your Yellow Page account, and “I wish I had done it differently,” any of those, and get really clear about how you actually feel about it. It feels to us like it was credited correctly, that they made a choice, that they saw that everyone was falling behind and they just said, “Forget it, we’ll take a loss before the end of the year.” They did some sort of accounting thing. Why they wouldn’t indicate that to you is confusing.

Comment: What are they going to say? It doesn’t fit into any box on their computer program, other than to say it’s a credit.

Eloheim: That feels like it’s energetically valid, what you’re saying. What we would invite you to do is to see, use this as an opportunity to be surprised about a relationship. You know like when somebody’s who’s been really unconscious all of a sudden acts conscious and you go, “Oh, I didn’t know you had that in you.” It causes you to kind of wake up and look around a little bit more about that relationship. So just look at it as a relationship that shifted in a direction that serves you and make sure that your feelings, opinions, thoughts about the whole thing are of the highest vibration you can have. And it’s OK to say, “God I wish I didn’t have this Yellow Page ad but I do. I wish it didn’t cost as much as it did.” Well it does. So let’s start with “well, I do” and “yes it does” and move from there, because if you’re in the “I wish it was different” you know that never…

Comment: In the past year they made a mistake, on my ad. The ad was awful. They didn’t give me a proof that looked awful. So that’s where the burr on the saddle was.

Eloheim: And it’s interesting because again it’s the “I would’ve done it a different way.” Just like the TV repair man, “I would’ve done it a different way.” So looking at the fact that they made a mistake—you know we’ve talked about how your internal circumstances reflect in your external journey, but sometimes your external journey shows you a place where you’re making transformation. It’s the same thing but it’s different energetically. We’re not explaining it very well. But what this is showing you is here’s some ways of doing business and you’re saying, “not my way, that’s not how I do business.” But there’s a line and we hope you can all see this because this is true for everyone, when you see people doing things you wouldn’t do, it’s that line where you say, “not me.” Instead of saying, “Should that be me? Is that me? Am I like that and I’m not aware of it?” And you start to get into this doubt about “Does that person start to tell me something about who I am?”

Comment: The reason we’ve been doing that is because we’ve been told that your outside world reflects your internal journey. So that’s where the doubt comes from.

Eloheim: Your external world is reflecting your internal journey but it doesn’t mean…sometimes it’s reflecting your clarity, not your need to change. So like the 25 items, that’s reflecting your clarity. So your external world is showing you, “I’m clear that when someone makes a mistake on my bill I go and fix it.” Not telling you, “I’m a dork and I only charge one when it’s 25 on the table.” You could take it either way. But see, as you become clearer about who you are and you walk the truth of you, when things like that occur it clarifies your internal journey rather than tells you something is wrong with your internal journey that needs to be changed. That was the point we were trying to make. Like if you walk down the street and you hear somebody being a bigot you can say, “It’s true that’s not how I am.” If you know that’s not how you are.

Now that takes a lot of consciousness to reflect. “That’s right, that’s not me.” Because at one point maybe there was some bigotry in you and you said, “Nope, that’s not me.” Or someone you know is shouting hatefully or angrily and you think, “I’ve been angry in the past. That’s not me anymore. I know that’s not how I handle my triggers anymore.” So your external world is showing you your progress. It’s showing you the transformation you’ve made. It’s showing you where you used to live. For so long, it’s been your external world has shown you where you need to work and now you’re getting your external world showing you where you’ve worked. So yes, we’re making a little transition there. Get it? That’s interesting. You have a lot of…your examples come from your interaction with the world. The cop, the tire, the this, the that. You always have these stories about interacting with the world very vigorously. Your losing your wallet. She has these real worldly experiences.

Comment: Touching on the clarity, that lit up something in me from something that’s happening at work. There was a change that should have been made to my financials, tried to get it through, I was reprimanded, three reprimands, I thought do I really care about this? No. They are not reviewing it monthly as they should. But I’m really uncomfortable with it because yes it’s been handled, but not really, and I can’t resolve it.

Eloheim: This is interesting because honestly, we didn’t understand your explanation. Did anyone else understand her explanation? We’re wondering if that’s because energetically it’s such a mess.

Comment: Part of me wants to walk off the job right now.

Eloheim: Maybe that’s what we were picking up on. Because it was almost this sense of, does it matter? Is it important? It’s like null. Fog. Do we care? And not do we care, but do we—the capital We. Do we even care about this? Is this a place to sort things out? Your desire for clarity. Is this the environment to subject yourself to? Because for some time now, you’ve talked about how you cannot be your complete self and you’re not seen and you’re not heard and here you have brought this to their attention and they decided to reprimand you for it, three times—not once, not twice, but three times. Let us just look at the energies just one quick moment more. It’s funny, we just see you, do you live in cubicle-land at that job?

Comment: Yes.

Eloheim: Okay, because we can see you in cubicle-land. And for those people who are listening to this later, we mean a room with lots of cubicles in it. So we just see you standing in a cubicle and there’s like a cone of white light around you and the rest of it is just, you’re just outside of time and space, just standing there, outside of time and space looking around as if none of this makes any damned sense. It’s all just nonsense. Literally. It’s all just nonsense. No sense.

Comment: Correct.

Eloheim: Okay. You have clarity that that’s the energetic that job offers you. It’s nonsense. And you’re just saying you think it should be one way. They think it should be another way. Push papers around. Move numbers around. It’s just nonsense. Okay. That’s the clarity. You’re in nonsense. Now you can try to make sense of nonsense, but it’s exhausting and you look tired.

Comment: And it doesn’t do any good.

Eloheim: Maybe the new year brings a new something more. Because you look tired. You look on an energetic level what we’re seeing is you look like, “I know I have given all I can give to this. Without a doubt I have tried it all.” You look so tired. What we would say is use the fingertip tool or something similar and just say, “Clarity, clarity, clarity. I’m clear. I’m in clarity. Clarity flows through me.” Just let yourself recharge your own batteries. And once you recharge your own batteries a little bit, get yourself past Christmas, just let yourself really come back to your strong self. The strong self that doesn’t need that job, doesn’t need it to be the answer, doesn’t need to sort it out, needs to just feel that column of white light and when you feel that strength then you can make a change if it’s time to make a change. Don’t make a change from this place. So that you’re making your next moment out of a strong position. And it’s not, “I’m right and you’re wrong.” Just pump up your own tires before you go for a ride, is what we’re telling you. Your tires are flat. So, pump them up and when you feel that sense of you back, then you can be clear about this. (Take this job and shove it, right? We don’t know if that’s the way you’re going to go but it’s fun singing that song.)

Question: Two spots, tension in my chest. It went away for months but it’s come back in the last month. Last week during the Guardians, the sense that I got was too much pressure inside. Let’s bring whatever’s been contained out. It hasn’t been working.

Eloheim: Still feeling that tension?

Response: Yes.

Eloheim: And when you tune into that tension how does it make you feel?

Response: Crippled and small and old.

Eloheim: Veronica can feel it now. Hang on just a second. Incapacitated? Yeah, just a moment. What you’re doing is you’re tapping into an alternate expression of you, which is our new lingo for past lives, what we used to call past lives. We’re just trying to see what sort of abusive situation you were in then. You guys and your random ways to use the human body for slavery and all sorts of good stuff like that.

It’s as though you had—oh boy, this is going to be big. You had a yoke, like a piece of wood across your shoulders, and it was pushing in on your chest and you were basically a human farm animal, sort of an oxen kind of deal. We’re seeing that Egyptian picture up there [Eloheim is referring to a picture on the wall in the meeting room] and we don’t know if that’s influencing why we’re getting an Egyptian feel to it but it feels like an Egyptian feel to it, a sense that you’re in a warmer climate, more of a desert environment. It’s easy to make babies. Sometimes it’s hard to get cattle and hard to get oxen. It’s hard to get beasts of labor sometimes. Where are you going to get them? If you’ve got people all you need is time and you’ve got babies, you’ve got workers.

So, you were strong and tall and you were a bigger dude. You weren’t smart. Not at all. You were what you would call retarded if you didn’t worry about being politically correct, but you were kind of a big brute-y guy. Dumb as an ox. You’ve heard that saying? They made you work like one. And it was one of those things where you were always leaning forward and pushing against this yoke and there was a sense of, “He doesn’t know better. He doesn’t know any different. He’s not smart so it’s OK to treat him as less than human.” And your, let’s just see why that’s connecting into you right now.

You didn’t enjoy that lifetime and you weren’t as neutral about it as everyone thought you were, but you didn’t expect more from yourself either. They didn’t expect much from you, you didn’t expect much from you, you didn’t expect that you’d have a woman, you didn’t expect that you’d have a family, you didn’t even expect to be treated well. You got what you…you rose to what the low standard they gave you to rise to. Part of why that’s being illuminated in you is there is this connection between those two expressions that says, “Am I going to rise to my ability? Am I going to be able to be as much as I know I can be? Am I going to have opportunities, support, are people going to believe in me? Can I have an opposite kind of experience?”

So you came in with this healthy body. You came in with this opportunity to have this really flexible lifestyle. You came in with this very intelligent mind. You came in with this very inquisitive nature, which you would call almost the opposite of this other expression but there’s still that fear or that insecurity that okay, great, so instead of a “2” now I’m a “10” but am I going to live up to my “10”? Am I going to live up to the potential I sense in myself? Am I going to do enough? Right? You can feel that.

It’s all well and good to be super smart, but if you don’t do anything with it you may as well just have been dumb. So he’s there, can’t pull a name out for you, but maybe you’ll connect to him, he’s there saying, “I may be dumb but that’s not all I am.” And you’re saying, “I may be smart but that doesn’t mean I’m necessarily going to show up as my complete self, guaranteed. I still have to be gentle with myself, patient with myself, work with myself,” and be very careful about the expectations you put on yourself. So it’s a little bit of a different dynamic, but it’s that energy that’s connecting you. Mostly, it’s connected to the fear that you’ll only measure up to the lowest-common-denominator rather than excel and exceed and reach the potential that you sense in yourself.

Now, there are other expressions of you that reach their potential. So one of the things you can do is say, “OK, big hunk-y Egyptian guy, I like knowing that I have that big strong tall muscular other expression,” because we know that’s something you’re enchanted by as well. So you have that model of the physical expression of staying healthy year after year even though being really brutally treated. So there’s that strong physical expression that you can connect to as well. Not just that fear that you’re only going to be minimized. And then the other expressions where you have been a scientist or a magician or a king even, where you have risen above what even you thought you were capable of. When shit hit the fan you showed up. Those expressions are out there as well, so when you start to feel this pain in your chest you can say, “Yes, yes, I know that fear is tempting me but I want to connect to that Merlin energy, to that king energy, to that energy of the scientist in Atlantis. I want to connect to that energy, as well.”

Now, those guys don’t necessarily have it all figured out, they have their issues, too, but don’t assume that you’re going to be the lowest-common-denominator guy just because you have one self expression that has that as part of the personality. You all see that it’s like a pie and there’s a just a part of the personality that he’s connecting to. Instead of connecting to the strength of that personality, you’re connecting to the fear in that personality. Remember we’ve talked about the collapsing of the lifetimes thing. This is part of that. When you start connecting with them, recognizing “I’m connecting with the fear part, what’s the strength part in this lifetime? What’s the talent, what are the capabilities?” Because you’re so connected to this lifetime and because you’ve had this challenge around wanting to get big and muscular, and we’ve had to beat you up about that, left and right, we want you to also recognize that. Give it a little more time and see the potential there. So part of that, too, is if you were big and strong then you’d feel like you at least did that part of your life. It’s nice to see why that was such a big deal. There’s a lot of reasons for it to be a big deal, but energetically we were always kind of wondering why are you so after yourself to get to be a man when you’re only 14. Part of it is, “Well, if at least I’m big and strong then I did as much as that guy ever did.”

Question: If we experience something like that but we don’t know what the reasoning is behind it, how would one deal with just the feeling of it?

Eloheim: The fingertip tool, as Heidi’s pointing out, but what you’re doing is recognizing, ‘Look, five minutes ago I didn’t feel this tension in my chest. Now I feel tension in my chest. Something changed. What changed? And if I’m aligning with another alternate expression of me this feels like I’m aligning with a low-vibrational aspect. This feels like I’m aligning with a fear. This feels like I’m aligning with unconsciousness. I choose to align with the conscious part of this lifetime.” So that might be another mantra: “I choose to align with the conscious part of my other expressions.” It’s just like if you’re walking down the street feeling fine and all of a sudden you feel bad, chances are you’re picking up on energy from someone. Well, if you’re in the house by yourself and all of a sudden you feel…. Guess what? It’s all on you. You’re picking up on your own energy.

Are you alright? It’s emotional. You don’t have to be a big, strong man. That’s a lot of fear to deal with, and that’s a lot of expectation to carry on your shoulders within yourself. You put a lot of expectations on your shoulders, and we would say to you that you can allow flow. Again—same story, different aspect of you. Be in flow. We talked about being in financial flow. Just be in flow of the evolution of you—and all of you can hear that. Be in the flow of the evolution of you.

We were talking to somebody during a private session—and it’s important that we talk about this, is that this whole thing about collapsing the lifetimes because we know we got your attention with that. And they ask, of course, “How does it work?” And we said, “We’re not going to tell you.” And it’s not: We’re not going to tell you because we don’t love you or we want to keep secrets from you. We’re not going to tell you because we don’t think it will help, and here’s our example: Aside from—well, we don’t know, but we know Sasha knows—aside from Sasha, maybe most, if not all, of you have no idea how your car works. You don’t know how your car works, and even if you know how your car works you don’t know how your car works. You know the chemical composition of gasoline and oil and you see the breakdown and the movement of the molecules, whatever.

The bottom line is: Most of you, you put the nozzle in, you give it a little water, Veronica said “oil, water, and gas.” She puts those three fluids in, she expects it to go. Just go. You don’t know how it works, speaking in general terms, yet you drive it all the time. You get in, you turn it on, you go. You don’t have to know how the collapse of the lifetimes works in order to get in it and go. And the more you try to figure it out, box it up, categorize it, let the mind be in charge of it, let the mind tell you what’s good, what’s bad, what’s safe, what’s not, the more you let the mind involved in this, the more limited it will be. And this is a completely expansive state, so it’s “I don’t know anything, I don’t know how it works, but it’s starting to happen and as it happens I’m just going to allow myself, just like I allow myself to get in my car and drive around even though I have no idea what’s going on, I’m going to have that same kind of ‘it’s OK to ride along rather than understand it all.’ ”

Question: I had a collapse. I was in the shower and I was thinking, “Eloheim and others keep telling me that my mind is so analytical,” and I’m in the shower and I’m not letting my mind be analytical and I just went and I stayed in the shower and I got out of the shower and started drying off and I was crying hysterically. It was horrible crying. I was dying and I had two children, one in each arm, and we were in front of a volcano and we knew we were dying and I was losing my children. And I realized that my children were my [current] mother and my husband, and I was hysterical. I knew also that I had to get out of this, so I went into neutral observation and it worked. It calmed me right down. And then I went into “what is true now.” And what is true now is that my husband and my mother and I are still alive, or that my children and I are still a alive. It was very real. It has changed the energy in the house a lot.

Eloheim: How?

Response: I’m not fighting them like I was with my energy. I’m looking at them…actually, it goes a lot deeper. My husband has attention deficit disorder and my mother is dyslexic and I’m dyslexic. I used to teach dyslexic children and what I enjoyed most was working with the parents in counseling and helping them handle their kids at home. And so here I am at home with two dyslexic individuals that I know exactly what they need and I’m not giving it to them. And it’s so obvious to me now, what I can do to help them and to help myself, but I have to change myself first in order to help them. I have to change my attitudes toward the way I handle myself with them and then I can help them. Not as children, but just look at my house as a classroom.

Eloheim: And do you feel like doing that reflects you being your true self?

Response: Yes. It goes back to when I was more my true self than I have been in the last 20 years.

Eloheim: So you used your tools.

Response: The tools really worked.

Eloheim: And they were there when you needed them. All these months of putting that tool belt on and sharpening all those tools and having them ready, and when you needed them you whipped them out and there you were.

Donna: I was just sad. I was just really sad that we were just losing it all and I also think that that’s why sometimes when I’m watching TV or something and there are children that are in trouble or parents that have lost their kids that I get very emotional.

Eloheim: And remember without going into detail your experiences on that subject that we talked to you about and we said there’s more in there, there’s more in there, there’s more in there.

Response: I do.

Eloheim: Again, there’s another picture there.

Response: Is that part of the collapse?

Eloheim: Yeah. It’s all happening at the same time. It’s happening outside of time, is more accurate.

Response: I’ve also asked what else from that experience can help me in my present situation, and another thing that I got was that we suffocated and it’s interesting in my family and in myself, the weakest parts of our bodies are our lungs. My mother says, “When I die, I’m going to die of pneumonia.” And other people in our family have lung problems.

Eloheim: So remember back in the day—what was it, last week or the week before, it feels like it was ten years ago—we told you when it starts to happen it will make sense. You don’t have to force it. It was at the webcast. You don’t have to force this when it starts to happen. And you see how the pieces, even with Jack, little pieces and Jack didn’t speak that much, which is OK because we know what was going on, but we bet there’s more pieces that went thunk, thunk, thunk, thunk and then what happens is you start to build—breathe please, everybody breathe, please.

Then what happens is the you that’s Randy and Mari and Donna, etc., those pieces come into you. See, you’re being ensouled. What does that mean? Those pieces become part of who you are and you become energetically a new being because you’re bringing your soul’s energy in. And it’s not just the wise man with the beard going, “Well, we know the answer to this equation.” It’s this experience and that experience and that experience being condensed, compressed, coalesced into a new you, into a new you. Jack can take the Egyptian strong dude and he can take that strength and make it part of himself. And the fears and the anxieties and the insecurities, you use the tools on. And then you don’t have them then and you don’t have them now—and there’s no such then and now, but you know what we mean.

So, what we’re saying is you have that moment—the volcano lady, we’ll call her—where you had that sense of, “I’m not done. We’re not done. We’re just in the middle.” So on some level you can take that strength and it’s like a life force. It’s like that life force that says, “that’s right, I want to be here.” Now, you don’t worry about that so much but some people do. They get kind of down in their life force. Heidi’s a little down in her life force but that’s a different subject. She’s going to pump her tires. Pump her tires, soothe Jack, rub your feet, check out everybody else’s energy, be sure to use two hands to make sure your legs don’t fall off, a whole lot going on tonight.

So what we’re saying is, there are some strengths in the volcano lady. And you saw her fears and her insecurities and you saw what is true about you. So let Miss Volcano lady inform you, because there was something before that moment. There were lots of moments before that one. However, usually you pull what’s lit up. So what’s lit up was looking at your husband and your mom and recognizing the things you recognized, recognizing that even though you know you have other relationships with them—when you feel it, it’s a whole different ball of wax. It feels like she might’ve been in Pompeii. Have you ever gone to Pompeii in all your travels? Could have been. Who knows.

Here it is. Are you ready for it? You knew. You knew that volcano was going to go, for a while, like six months, you just sensed it, you felt it, rumbles, smoke, whatever. On a core level, that women’s intuition level, that moms know stuff level, you said, “That volcano is going to go,” and you weren’t heard, you weren’t listened to, you didn’t feel like you had a way to get out of the situation that you were in. You couldn’t show up as your complete self, you weren’t seen for the truth you knew. So when you were there looking at the volcano it was like, “I’m not done and I knew and I couldn’t do anything about it.” So there’s this sense of being disempowered. A sense of “I could’ve done something for these kids if I were heard or seen or noticed.” So you felt disempowered in caring for them. It’s not that you didn’t listen to your true self. A lot of cultures at times, if you’re a woman, especially if you’ve got kids, you don’t have a lot of options. You don’t have a lot of ways of controlling your life. It’s like you’re in the culture, you’re in the community, you’re in the tribe and you go along with the rules. And saying, “By the way, we need to move,”—fat chance. So it was kind of, “I knew this was going to happen and I couldn’t”—how can we best say it? We’re going to put it in today’s language rather than try to use how you would say it then. “I didn’t feel like I had the power to stand up and be heard enough to make a change, and now look what’s happened.” And so it’s a little bit like your relationship that you have in your household right now. “How can I stand up and be heard? I’m gentle. I’m calm. I’m quiet. I’m smiley. And these people are angry and difficult and cranky,” and all those things.

So, recognizing that you are both, in that lifetime, you were both the mom who loved and protected them, who couldn’t protect them, and the woman who was disempowered even though you were right. Both of those aspects are going on. The strongest one, of course, is the kids, mom, husband thing. But that disempowered “I knew what was right and I couldn’t do anything about it,” that’s in there too. So spend a little time with that. (Your little feet wanted to run away and they didn’t get to.)

Question: Curiosity: when you said we’re ensouling little bits of our soul. Are our souls having experiences?

Eloheim: All of your soul is having an experience. Not all of the experiences are what you would call Earth.

Question: Here’s a round ball of energy. Is every part of that ball having an experience?

Eloheim: Oh, yes, just like every part of you is having an experience right now. Not every part of your soul will be part of you, Randy, but aspects of your soul that is experiencing itself as alternate expression Randy’s, parts of those alternate expression Randy’s will be part of the ensoulment of Randy, the parts you like. The skills, the talents, the senses of humor, whatever, and the consciousness. Because you don’t want to ensoul fears and doubts and low-vibrational states. You don’t need that. But if they have assets to share, you want the assets. The rest of it you are either transforming by your transformation or are being transformed by the shifting energetics.

Question: Like if we are having an experience on Mars are we going to be ensouling that experience?

Eloheim: Unlikely. Once you have assimilated the high-vibrational aspects of the alternate expressions of you, processed through the ensoulment process, once you’ve kicked that around for 100 or 200 years, then maybe you’ll want to know what it feels like to be a Martian on Earth, but that’s down the road.

Comment: What we’re going to be experiencing of the compression now are things that we can understand.

Eloheim: Things that are understandable by the human experience. Will you understand them? We’re not going to say that, because understanding is overrated and you don’t know anything. And a human will have had the experience. Will you understand it? Can’t say. If all of you gathered here tonight, all of your experiences, were ensouled into one body, there’s stuff that Richard does that none of the rest of you would have a clue what it means. It would be like, “Really? We can do that? OK that’s cool. Can I not been in charge though?” So, be careful that you don’t try to bring your brain online because your brain will be, “We’re not sure. We’re really not sure.” It’s like if you try to understand how we come through Veronica. Like, how can you explain that? We can give you a brief explanation but it’s not understandable in the sense of “I can rebuild your carburetor” understandable. It’s “I get in the car and turn the key and it goes” understandable. There’s a couple different layers of understanding here that we’re talking about. We like the understanding of “I get in the car and it drives.” That’s kind of the fun level of understanding because then you get all the benefit of it without having to spend a bunch of time trying to limit it with your brain.

Comment: When you start to have this experience and you want to access the conscious part of that experience, that’s going to be really helpful to me.

Eloheim: The conscious part and the part that illuminates consciousness within you. Because like Jack, the big strong guy may not be very conscious but he can illuminate consciousness within you by seeing his experience. Just like somebody being a bigot can illuminate consciousness within you even though that’s not a conscious act. That’s an important distinction. We’re glad that came up. You’re not becoming that but that is showing you who you are, “This is showing me who I am, not telling me who I am.” That’s important, too.

Question: These alternate expressions, these things are coming up to be integrated but to what extent do I, the Richard persona, heal it?

Eloheim: That is the line we’re learning about together. In your case it’s a line of saying, “OK, alternate expression Richard had this repetitive motion injury,”—for lack of a better term, that’s what you’d call it in 2010. “I held a sword for so many years that my hand started to permanently grip.” OK! Repetitive injury.

Response: All of us have aches, pains. Whose body is in charge?

Eloheim: Well, you get to be in charge, because we’re talking to you. And what you say is, “I see that I have a repetitive motion injury.” There so much going on with this but one of the things that we don’t think you’ve looked at yet is, “But if I have a repetitive motion injury that’s probably an unconscious state.” There was an unconsciousness about that that caused it to be…repetition is habit. Habit is unconscious. So, you’ve got an unconscious injury. You’ve got an injury based in unconsciousness. So that’s why we gave you that tool because what we’re trying to do is put more consciousness in that part of your body and more alternate expression of that part of your body. Instead of that part of your body for gripping, that part of your body is for expansion. So you’re in charge.

Your alternate expression is giving you information about habit, about repetition. And you’ve talked to us many times about how you get in the zone and you can focus for five, six, seven, eight, nine hours, and you worry that maybe you should be hiking instead of focusing on this project. Well, part of the reason you can get in that kind of a zone is because you have this warrior background. Warriors are really good at being in the zone. They can put meditators to shame. You stand there and wait. You’ve all got it. You’ve all got that warrior energy that can stand there in the zone. It comes forward in you. Well, part of the reason it’s coming forward in you is for you to in essence make friends with it, own it, respect it, and also to say, “but in this expression of me I don’t have to stand vigil. I don’t have to be on guard all the time, literally. I can use my energy in a different way.”

So you’re helping break a habit that is based primarily in an unconscious expression. So use the tool and when you think about your hand say, “How am I being habitual right now? If I get in my zone am I consciously in the zone, or am I in the zone in a numb way?” Those would be two things to do. But this alternate expression thing is a big deal and we’re going to be talking about it a lot because it’s complicated and each one has a certain nuance to it, and each little nuance reveals more of the whole picture for us to show you. Like that tick, tick, tick into place thing, we didn’t have that to share with you until Jack and Donna shared their stories. So that’s why when we shared it with you we felt the energy shift, is because that was new information.

Comment: When you talked about ensouling I envisioned it as being angelic energy coming through, not all the other different alternatives.

Eloheim: We told you that your soul is a conglomeration of all of your Earth experiences.

Comment: Yeah, but who remembers that?

Eloheim: It doesn’t mean that you won’t be able to fly. It just means that you’re going to have all kinds of information from other expressions of you participating in whatever it is you do. That’s the latest version of how we can explain what’s going on.

Question: Will you say that again?

Eloheim: We’ll try. It doesn’t mean you won’t be able to fly. It just means you’re going to have all kinds of aspects of alternative versions of you participating with you in whatever you decide to do. So, like Jack’s always going to have now the strong Egyptian dude consciously as part of his Jack expression and Donna’s got volcano woman forever. Volcano woman doesn’t just dissipate now. She’s part of you.

It’s always fun with you guys, but it was an interesting night. So, next week is the last one of 2009. We’re going to have to cook up something. Remember what the Guardians said to you. Your heart is a basket and you carry it in front of you. It’s the first thing. It’s the first thing. Chin up, shoulders back. Until next week.

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Here is the transcript of the 12-16-09 meeting. Enjoy.

[Meeting begins with silent energy work with the Guardians.]

Visionaries: Breathe, breathe, breathe. There comes a time in all journeys—whether they be literary or physical or spiritual—there comes a time in all journeys when you reach the crossroads, when you come to the point where a choice has to be made. And the fascinating thing about the crossroads is that most often the belief is that when the roads cross it means you either have to turn left or right. But the beauty of now and the place you’re in is that all you have to do is keep moving forward.

You are on the correct path. You are on the correct energetic line. You are moving into yourself deeply. What you have to be cautious about is that when you come to the crossroads, you don’t slip out of where you are and move into some kind of habit that takes you out of the path that you’re knowing you’re in, the knowing you’re on. And your holiday season, of course, is one of the greatest temptations of habit, but we’re not just looking at that now. We’re looking at that place within you where it is attention paid, attention paid, attention paid, and some ahas, and some ups and downs, and some roller coaster stuff, and maybe some interesting super hero things that happen, whatever, and then all of a sudden you just get a little bit complacent. You stop asking what is true now. You stop looking for how to express the truth of you. You let go of the path that has been serving you.

This is just another way that habit rears its head, because there’s that thing that says, “Oh, things are better now.” And “things are better now” wants to go back to, “OK, I can stop doing what I was doing.” It’s like when you take medicine. “Oh, I took some medicine and I feel better so I’m going to stop taking the medicine now.” And the doctor says, “Take all of it.” And you say, “Oh no, I’m feeling better now,” and so you stop. We’re looking energetically at you and we’re saying don’t let the crossroads confuse you. Don’t let the crossroads keep you from the journey that you are validating yourself through. Just because you get to a plateau point or just because you get to a point where it’s not as in-your-face, you don’t feel like you’re being buffeted by the wind, or drowned by the waves of the ocean—whatever version of this has been overwhelming you like it the best to have it expressed. Just because there’s a little break in the action doesn’t mean to stop taking the medicine. It doesn’t mean to stop doing the tools. It doesn’t mean to let go of the path that’s taken you this far.

The crossroads is very close to the end. It’s very close to a transformed state. It’s very close to a brand new way of being. And as you get closer and closer to the end the crossroads are more and more frequent, because the body and mind are collaborating to say, “Are you sure you want this big change?” And they’re giving you all kinds of off-ramps to get off the path you’re on. They throw up some stop signs and some stoplights and they keep saying, “Are you sure? Are you sure? Are you sure?” And the only way for you to know if you’re sure is to say, “What is true now? What is the truth of me? What do I authentically desire to experience? Why am I in fear? What is this habit I’m experiencing?” To ask yourself the questions that you’ve been asking all this time. To keep asking them, even if the way the answers are coming to you is shifting or it becomes a little more obvious or you think, “Oh, I don’t need that so much because I think I got all I could get out of it.”

What we’re going to ask you to do is to attend to the truth of the moment, which is that you’re not in bliss yet. And if you’re not in bliss, there is still road to walk. If you’re not in bliss, there is still road to walk. So caution against changing your path simply because your reaction to the tools is becoming different. It doesn’t mean the job has finished. It doesn’t mean the job is done. It means that you are still walking the path. It’s just not as slamming. OK? You have every opportunity to continue on your path even when the temptations of habit, the temptations of the old way, the temptations of society and the culture telling you you’re wrong, the temptations of not being validated, the temptations of no one getting you.

Whatever your current temptation is, whenever those temptations show themselves, just allow yourself to say, “I know this path is moving me in a direction that I appreciate and I want to continue on. I know where these side roads lead. They lead all the way back to the beginning and I’m not willing to go back to the beginning. I’m not interested in going back to the beginning. I’m interested in continuing to move forward until I get to a new beginning, until I get to a new beginning. That’s what I am interested in.” If you’re not in bliss, there’s still some road to walk. Now, if you’re in neutral, you’re getting closer, but that’s not bliss. And the sense we get is the tools are working and you’ve gone a little bit into neutral, a little bit into plateau, a little bit into pause and at that point it’s up to you to move forward more. OK?

Eloheim: OK, well, so! How is that energy work at the beginning from the Guardian’s?

Comment: Pretty trippy.

Eloheim: A little bit more information would be helpful.

Comment: Head popping.

Comment: Tingling in the heart chakra.

Comment: Very reassuring and validating.

Eloheim: Did any male person experience anything during the Guardians?

Comment: It’s hard to tell.

Eloheim: Last time none of the men felt anything and all the women did so that’s the only reason we ask in that way. (to Richard) After you did the bowl?

Comment: Subtle but yes.

Comment: Didn’t feel anything in my body.

Eloheim: The Guardians officially suck at coming into the human form. They almost have Veronica throwing up, so that’s something to be said.

Comment: I think they don’t breathe.

Eloheim: Ah, we’ll have to check in on that. They are very, very unskilled at interacting with the human form and they can move energy so powerfully. We’re negotiating. We’re negotiating. That’s why they don’t talk anymore.

Question: Do they need the form to move energy through?

Eloheim: Yes. We’re not even going to explain why. What we haven’t yet figured out is how to be in Veronica’s energy field and give them enough room to do what they want to do too. We were trying to be there together—there was almost barfing, so we’re not going to try it that way again. Veronica’s like, “That’s going to be a mess!”

Let’s just see if we can figure out… they were doing that… the conversations been had about… see how hard their energy—even when we try to tune into their energy, we can’t talk anymore. Just a second. Veronica’s like, “No! I’m not going there,” because she doesn’t want to throw up. So, this is really interesting. OK, so they are helping you chip away the excess marble so the sculpture of you can be revealed is one of the ways we’ve used to describe it, but primarily what they were doing tonight was also clearing away the things that have been chipped off.

OK, it’s another one of those times when something really major is happening here and we’re just going to ask you to just hang in for a second to see what this is. The Guardians are asking us just to ask you to take energetically, or with your intention, something that you know that you have gotten rid of in 2009—whenever, it doesn’t matter—but something that you know you have released or a behavior that you know you have transformed, a trigger, and then imagine that that has some kind of a tangible shape and that you can put it down between your feet or right in front of you on the ground someplace. So let’s just do this together. And this is some big shit mojo energy going down here tonight, so we’re just going to… OK, everybody got something?

So, what we’re going to do here is we’re going to talk, they’re going to do the energy, and Veronica is going to try not to throw up. This is the collective wisdom of the evening. This is something we’re going to make this request, what you are letting go of here we would strongly suggest you pick the thing. Don’t fuck around, is what we’re trying to say here, because they’re going to move some serious energy and when they move this energy you want it to be that thing that you really want to get rid of. So, if it’s something that maybe you haven’t gotten all the way rid of but you’re ready to get all the way rid of, that’s the thing you should pick. So this is one of those times where you guys brought a strong enough intention into the room to let go of stuff that they’re able to really help you cut cords—and we can’t talk anymore so we’re going to trust that you know what we’re talking about.

So it’s on the ground, and maybe it still has some tendrils or hooks or cords or straps or wires or anything like that that’s attached to you. So, we’re going to walk around the circle and just know that out of all the beings that you have worked with, the Guardians can work energy better than any of us. And you’ve all seen us move energy and you’ve seen the Visionaries move energy. They’re going to move energy. And you may not even feel it, you may feel it. We don’t know. They’ve backed off a little so we can explain it more. Don’t worry about Veronica. We’ve got her. Don’t worry about her. Because if you’re worried about her that’s going to confuses the energetics. We know it’s hard not to, but don’t. Let’s let them just come back in then.

Now, collectively, bring your collective intention together regarding what it is you’re ready to collectively let go of. And we would say collectively, it’s that sense of isolation that you feel in your heart even though you stand together often, that sense of isolation, that loneliness, that sense of not feeling understood or known. It comes from lifetime after lifetime after lifetime of standing out in the crowd one way or another. There you go. At some point it just is. You are who you are. The reception of that is no longer high enough on the list to get as much attention.

[Silent energy work for six minutes]

So let’s have some breathing. Are you guys even in the room? Are you here? Do you feel connected to your body? Does anyone feel like they really want to talk about that?

Comment: At first I thought, “How could you know what I’ve been experiencing?” I feel such an incredible clarity.

Eloheim: Some of what is going on is difficult to put into words and that’s why we’re not using very many tonight. There’s not a lot of language to associate with the expression of… Your individual expressions of that energetic were all unique. Every single one of you presented with a different picture, a different representation, a different expression of release. It’s very interesting to observe. The Guardians bring through much more visual energy than we do. So we were sort of watching a movie and making sure Veronica didn’t fall down. That was our job and it was pretty cool. It was pretty cool.

Comment: I’ve been working on getting to the bottom of things. The naiveté of ego. I can feel it. It started as a blob and then it just disappeared. It was exquisite.

Eloheim: You know we told you years ago, but at some point there would be a meeting with no words and this is getting pretty close to that because languaging the energy that’s moving in the room right now is really challenging. Languaging what we are sensing, what we’re feeling, what we’re seeing is really, really interesting. So Richard, that tool that we came up with for you that we wanted to talk about next, we’re wondering if you’ve had any time with it at all yet?

Richard: No.

Eloheim: Not yet? That’s fine. That’s fine. We just thought if you had, we could get your opinions about it so far, but we think it’s a good time to share it now. [Eloheim mentioned to Richard during the private session that they were going to be using this tool with the group] Richard asked us about a thing that’s been going on with his hand and coming up with an exercise to facilitate the energy moving in his hand more, we expanded it to a tool that we felt all of you would benefit from, and so we’re going to show you that now. And the purpose of this tool is to give you practice emanating.

We’ve been talking at length about emanating, emanating, emanating. Because so many of you have alternative expressions of you, which is our new language for past lives, now that we’re collapsing the lifetimes we’re just calling them alternative expressions. You have concurrent alternative expressions where your emanation has gotten you shot, raped, pillaged, hung, burned up, crucified, basically whacked in every creative way possible—and as we say to you, “OK, it’s time to emanate,” parts of you are hearing that means it’s time to get dead. And because you’ve had so much practice at managing your fear response around getting dead you can say, “OK, I’m not in physical danger, we have that tool,” but it’s still: We say emanate and you say get dead; we say emanate and you say get dead. So, we’re not moving. We’re not moving. And we can’t have your emanation aborted by fear based in alternative expressions where when you emanated you got dead. And when we look at how to heal your feelings around being able to emanate safely, what you do is those alternative expressions of you benefit from that, as well. And no, we’re not going to go into the details of how that works, but just know that part of what we’re moving into now is transforming the alternative expressions of you so that they can ascend with you as you ascend.

So, the tool is this. You want to put the four fingers of the hand together with their matching fingers—the thumbs don’t get to participate, they get to hang out. So as you put your fingers together what we’re looking at is the emanation comes out of your right side of your body. We’ve talked about this a million times. The right side of your body is the outward expression; the left side of your body is your inner expression—male/female, yin/yang, whatever. So, what we’re looking at is starting with your left pinky—the tip of your left pinky—you want to see, feel, imagine, pretend if you can’t feel it—we don’t care—pretend, if you can feel it, groovy, if you can feel it part of the time, groovy. And you want to move the energy along your pinky, palm, through the arm, across the chest, down the other arm and out the other pinky into the pinky again. So at first we just want to practice doing that. Maybe give it three or four spins. It can be fast, it can be slow, whatever, dealers choice.

Then what you want to do is come up with an issue in your life, money, marriage, health, whatever, just pick whatever one you’ve got on your mind, and as you move that energy through the left hand, up the left arm and across the chest we want you to just see how you experienced that in 2009 or up until now, let’s say, how you experienced it. And this is how it used to trigger you, how it used to always be on your mind, how it scared the crap out of you, blah, blah, blah, all the things we’ve talked about. As it gets to the middle of your chest and it moves through that combination heart/power chakra that the Guardians have been working on, we want you to transform it by saying, “How do I want to feel about it? To see it change?” Even, “I am willing for it to be transformed.” Any sort of opening around that issue that you can express.

So, let’s do money because that’s always a good one. We’re going to start at the pinkies and we’re going to do money. So as you move it along, you know, how you’ve felt about money, how you’ve been triggered about money, where you experience lack. And it’ll be interesting because as soon as we said lack, Veronica got tight in her wrist. So, just see what—if you have any sort of blah, blah, whatever, this is your own internal process being shown to you—move it along and as it gets to the center of your body, how does the center of your body feel when you think about money in the center of your body? As you move it down near your right arm we have a new money mantra for you. “I am in financial flow and money comes to me in infinite ways.” So let’s just use that one: “I am in financial flow and money comes to me in infinite ways.” Down the right arm, into the pinkie and then do it again. And you can come up with however many rounds you need to do to give yourself the opportunity to not only become aware of what you’re clearing but to set some intentions, set some programming, set some realizations of how you wish to feel. Use your tools, if nothing else “I don’t know anything about this.” “I am willing.” “I am open to a transformation.” Whatever spins your boat, but use your tools.

So then once you’ve come up with…maybe you’ve done money enough, then move to the next finger. And maybe that’s a good relationship finger because that’s where you guys wear your wedding rings on that finger, so let’s say relationships and let’s look at your relationships. Now it can be friendships, it can be your lover, it can be your partner, husband, wife, kids, boss, gardener, whatever, who cares. Whatever relationship that you feel like you need to address or you want to look at or if you have a relationship that you know is really changed or a relationship you want to get going or a relationship that you want to heal or a relationship to an alternative expression of you that you’ve become aware of that you’re feeling could use some attention from you or you say, “I want to make some kind of collaboration or exchange.” So you run it up the left arm and then when you get to the right arm, “I am willing,” “I don’t know anything,” “I am ready for the fullest expression of me to be present in that relationship,” “I want the truth of me to be shown in that relationship,” whichever of these words resonate with you. And maybe you have to do that 25, 35, 55 times—we don’t know, but it’s more than one, we’ll tell you that. A number greater than one.

And then you get to the next finger and maybe that’s health. Let’s let that one be health. And so you look at your health issues. What health things, what body things, what would you change about your body, what physical things are you struggling with, on and on and on and then you let that go up your left hand. As you look at going up your left hand what you’re doing is you’re really looking at not “Oh God, I’ve had this bad back for 10 years,” but “Wow, I’ve learned a lot about back pain. I’ve learned a lot about poor eyesight. I’ve learned a lot about…” whatever you guys have going on these days. And it’s not a time to complain. It’s a time to look at how it’s been, how it’s changed, what it’s taught you, what you know now. From the tool-based expression of you, how do you evaluate it? How would you consciously talk about your physical thing that you’re concerned about, when you could say, “I’ve learned enough from back pain,” or “Back pain has been here for me but I’m ready to let it go. Back pain has revealed a lot of things to me but I’m ready to learn in a new way that’s not as painful. I’m ready to pay more attention; I don’t need the hammer upside the top of my head to learn.”

These are the ways we want that left arm information to be, because what you’re doing is you’re bringing that energy alive in your body and you don’t want to bring the unconscious energy alive in your body. You want to bring the conscious awareness of that energy alive in your body. You’re moving it through this enormously powerful turned-on power and heart chakra combination, and that’s like the place where it gets all composted and changed into a new form because it’s running through a heart/power chakra synergy. And then out the right arm saying, “I’m willing. I’m willing to live in a healthy body. I’m willing to open up to alternatives that I hadn’t previously been aware of. I’m willing to say why is this happening for me rather than why is this happening to me.” All those sorts of things. And there might be some truth that says, “I think I still have something to learn from x, y, z. I can feel I still have something to learn here but I want to learn it in the most easeful, graceful and speedy way possible.”

Because, see, what you’re doing is you’re making an agreement with your body. You’re making an agreement with your energetic system. You’re saying, “This is how I want it to be going forward.” Because what have we been telling you? January is going to kick off a new relationship to the body, so what you’re doing is you’re creating this system that says this is how we can program the experience we want to have. Then you have another finger, what haven’t we done? Housing. You can do whatever you want with the fingers. We’re giving suggestions.

Then, of course, before you end, each time you do this—and maybe you’ll do it every day, maybe you’ll do it once, maybe you’ll do it twenty times a day, we don’t know what you’re going to do—but before you end what we would recommend you do just to see the whole hand, the whole chest, the whole hand, and all four fingers at once being a sense of emanating the truth of you. So, “I choose for the wholeness of me to be expressed.” And maybe you can reflect on places where you’ve cheated yourself out of your entire expression, places where you’ve played small, places where you’ve given the truth of you away, places where you haven’t believed in yourself, places where you’re insecure or uncertain, and you can just let those light up, like you’re watching a movie. Not like you’re getting triggered, not you’re going through emotions, just let them show you. And then as you move through that heart/power chakra and you go down that other arm, all you need is “I am willing for the truth of me to be expressed in every moment. I’m ready to show up as the completeness of me.”

What you’re training yourself to do is to emanate in a safe way. It’s completely safe because the only person getting your emanation is you. And what happens is then all of a sudden you’ve had more practice, more practice, more practice, more practice, you go out into the world and you’re practiced at emanating, expressing, your energetic. And beyond that you’ve reworded and reworked all these different aspects of yourself and consciously moved them through the power/heart chakra combo and moved them into the moving out into the world emanation side of your body. Questions about that?

Comment: Once a day? Ten times a day?

Eloheim: Rock and roll. Whatever turns you on. Whatever you feel good about. And you might sit down to do it and think, “Wow, this is really cool. I want to keep doing this.” But what we’d like to see you doing is if you’re feeling anxious about putting yourself out in the world or showing up as your complete self or believing you can, that’s really what this tool, well, it has so many uses. But the primary thrust of it is the practice emanating your complete self in a completely safe environment because you’re the only one experiencing your emanation and that practice makes it possible to do it with other people around more easily. Just like you need to put on a dance and you’ve got a little stage fright, well you keep practicing the dance until you feel good about the dance. Then when you get up there you might still feel some stage fright but you have body/muscle memory and plus you understand it a little more. You’ve experienced it a little more.

Comment: Was that all four fingers in contact?

Eloheim: We think probably all four are better just to keep the circuit flowing and frankly, the whole finger thing is more about getting you to pay extra attention than it is about… very rarely do we give you tools that you have to do it exactly the way we said it. But if you think about your pinky that requires more habit-breaking consciousness than if we just said put your hands together. And to actually hold that kind of a basket shape that requires a little bit more paying attention than if we just said clasp your hands and run it in a circle.

Question: Do we have to consciously activate that part where they’re going through the heart chakra?

Eloheim: You have been with the Guardians. That stuff is turned on. No, you don’t have to turn on that power/heart chakra thing. That’s turned on already and it’s functioning, actually.

Question: For the viewers who do not have sensory pinky touching—either they don’t have a pinky or it’s numb and they don’t know it. Is there a method for them to use for a focusing point?

Eloheim: Well, they just have to work with what they’ve got. One time we had a thing where we said something to the effect of think about your ankles and someone wrote an email saying, “Well, what if I don’t have an ankle?” It’s like, well, think about something that you have then. Work it out. If you’re missing something, work it out. Just work it out. Like we said, you could clasp your hands and do the same tool. You could do it without holding your hands probably. But it’s making a dynamic that requires you to pay a lot of attention. It’s really focusing on this. Give it a spin. Let us know what you think next week, but we have a sense this is a good one.

You had homework. The homework was to see if you felt like you could make an observation to someone else in the group about the difference you’ve seen in them in whatever issue you’ve noticed and the way they’ve handled things in the past or talked about things over the past few months or years, some of you it could be years. See we want you guys to be patting yourselves on the back more and if you won’t pat yourselves on the back we thought perhaps we could get you guys to pat each other on the back a little bit. Did anyone besides Heidi think about this? Because apparently Heidi has a list. She’s typed it out.

Heidi: Veronica. I rejoice in your willingness to offer your vitality and vigorous energies to the Eloheim, Visionaries, and Guardians. Especially I thank you for re-anchoring my shoulder and collarbone.

Randy: Letting go of being in control of everything all the time and our lives seem more about relaxing more about things that come up.

Eloheim: So when something comes up that you feel you would have controlled in the past, what do you do now?

Comment: Observe it. I’m observing and I have a talk in my head a little bit and it’s like it doesn’t have any more Velcro. There’s no more Velcro for me needing to fix it for other people or even give it—it doesn’t enter me anymore. It’s like it’s out here and I’m just viewing it like a movie and I can give objective advice or an objective response as opposed to an emotionally engaged, take it personally, kind of response.

Eloheim: How are you reacting when you find a situation you would have previously controlled?

Comment: Much better. I step back. I’m there in the moment and I realize what’s happening and I step back. I don’t want it. I don’t desire it. It’s so much easier not having it. It makes life so much easier just to sit there and observe it and step back.

Mary: We’re all much more comfortable in our skins and a lot more present and willing to talk and share. This has got to be what bliss is. Everything is a lot easier. We don’t get so riled up.

Comment: Fewer triggers.

Comment: It seems like it really just clicked in for us. Two or three weeks ago.

Eloheim: There’s been a lot of changes, recently, that we’ve seen in you guys and on the webcast we were talking about the boring thing. But you guys haven’t been talking about the boring thing for a while. It’s one of the steps of this whole process. You do a lot of neutral observation and then you start going, “Oh, I’m bored.” But you guys seem to have moved out of bored now and we’re living in fascination more, we’re living in, like you said, “I just kind of cock my head and think that’s interesting.” So we’re getting a lot more from you guys of fascination.

Veronica was reminding us earlier how really cool it was when you, John, were talking about one of the questions we had, when we did the four questions and your answer, you went four layers deep on your answer. You said, “I thought it was this, and then I thought it was this,” and she really enjoyed that you did that. It really felt good to her—and to us, of course—but she was just thinking that’s cool, not only see that in her world, but to know I’m not the only one who’s ever had that experience of how that feels to go four layers down on something you know is a trigger.

And that does brush up against bliss because what you’re saying is “I’m triggered and I think I’m triggered about this, oh, wait, no, I’m triggered about this, oh wait, I’m triggered about this, oh wait, that’s what’s really going on.” Well, when you know what’s going on then you can do something about it. When you don’t know what’s going on, you can’t. So that’s where that bliss thing comes in, is because instead of being in trigger, you’re in transformation. But it takes attention to get from trigger to transformation. And that’s part of that exercise that we were doing with the fingers is that attention, all that stuff on the left arm, previous triggers, down the right arm, the transformation you desire. Does anybody else have something they wanted to share?

Deb: I’ve noticed with everybody, but in particular Sasha, there are so many levels and I find it absolutely fascinating to watch him go on these different levels. What I get from you is so much more vibrant and clear. You seem so much happier than when I first met you.

Sasha: There’s a calming presence there that’s reassuring. You don’t have to run to people-pleasing anymore. You don’t have to answer to the old pattern anymore.

Eloheim: And we want to say, Deb, that that’s really good feedback that part of what we’re doing here is what you see in others is true in you. Your internal journey is expressed, so when you see people changing, it’s an indication that you’re changing, too.

Heidi: Debbie, I cherish seeing you lay down your flak jacket and openly share all that you are. I wore a flak jacket, too, for more years than God knows.

Deb: It’s not comfortable

John: The group seems a lot more mellow. It’s nice traveling down the road together.

Eloheim: Yeah, and our experience of it is that we can spend 60, 70, 80, 90 minutes together on one subject, or one subject and several sub-subjects, but it’s not so much a case of people coming with that thing that’s bugging them, as much as let’s get together and see where we all are and what tool we can bring forward, what energy we can bring forward, what transformation we can bring forward for all of us. And then using those tools and that transformation to go back and address your specific stuff. Because a tool can work for lots of different situations.

So of course, we know sometimes you just have that thing that’s just burning a hole in your brain that you have to ask about. But more and more often, especially in the latter part of this year, we’re experiencing the questions are about what we’re talking about rather than coming to the meeting with an agenda about what—it’s not the Oracle where you show up saying I have a question—it’s what does the energy bring forth and let’s clarify. Like we did with the fingers and you asked your question and you asked your question, let’s clarify the information. So the Visionaries come in, they lay it out, we come in and seek to clarify it, your questions further clarify it and then we all go away for seven days and see what happens and that’s really fulfilling to us because it allows us to take the information all the way to the place.

Back in the day, the meetings were a little more free-form and people could interrupt and that’s how the format was. That was great then, but at some point we said stop talking, basically because we wanted to start moving energy more and building energetics and exploring an entirety of an experience together and that was a real turning point for what you guys were willing to experience and what we were ready to bring in. We don’t remember when that happened, but we imagine it was this year some time, too, where it was like OK, from now on we’re going to move an energy together and those little distractions stopped being part of the culture. And we know at the beginning that might have been a big change but we believe you see now that it was contributing, we were contributing to a collective.

Question: A question about something that Eloheim and the Visionaries have said. Eloheim has busted me on not doing enough, for not using the tools, but not to beat myself up about it, but the Visionaries say don’t let up, not one moment, unrelenting, Herculean effort. How does one balance that?

Eloheim: That’s a really good question. What the Visionaries are telling you is pay attention. What we’ve been on your ass about is beating yourself up for not paying attention. There’s a difference. It’s the beating yourself up part. So if you recognize, “Wow, I’ve been unconscious for the last hour driving, OK, I’m going to start being conscious again.” The old Richard would’ve gone “Oh, you missed a whole hour being conscious, you asshole,” or whatever you call yourself when you’re not speaking out loud. We don’t know. You probably have words in four languages you use. We wouldn’t be surprised. You see the difference? The Visionaries are just encouraging you not to, like they said, don’t get on the off ramp. Your issue was being really angry with yourself for perceived slights or perceived slacking off. You don’t need to beat yourself up for missed opportunities, just recommit to the opportunity you’re in, the moment you’re in.

Comment: And not let up on it.

Eloheim: Well, yeah, and not let up on it. That would be good, in the sense that the more you pay attention to it, the more second nature it becomes. The more it becomes a part of you. It’s the way you express yourself, which is what you want. You want to express yourself consciously all the time. So it’s “Oh, yes, I recognize that there’s space for more consciousness here,” instead of “Damn it, I blew it again. I wasn’t conscious.” Catching yourself and going into consciousness instead of catching yourself and being mad you weren’t in consciousness. That’s probably the easiest way to say it. We tried four different ways of saying it. We finally got around to one that actually made sense to us. Anybody else have something they want to share about how they’ve seen a specific person or the group in general change in the last year?

Heidi: John, your generous presence in supporting community without surrendering a personal life is a dance I enjoy observing.

John: Thank you, Heidi.

Comment: I’m just in awe of the entire group, transforming, and how much I’ve changed, too. It’s really amazing to watch itself change.

Comment: Donna has really taken the bull’s-eye off of herself and she’s a lot more comfortable. Sure seems like she’s been a lot more confident. And of course we have to give a shout-out to Margy.

Comment: Physically everyone has a glow.

Comment: Lois, please let us know where you are.

Eloheim: We appreciate you guys sharing and opening up even further, expanding, deepening, whatever language you want. It’s this, it’s that open, instead of this, which is the closed. You really have been trained to live like a triangle and now you’re turning it upside down and you’re opening and you’re saying I want more to come to me, I want more opening, I want more expansion, I want more transformation.

Comment: What I’ve noticed is the ease of telling the truth. There’s no more not telling the truth. Everybody here has created the environment needed here to be able to speak your deepest, darkest, truth and that’s amazing to me. I find myself out in the world I can’t live any other way. There’s absolutely no way not to tell the truth. And I see everyone doing it willingly, easily.

Comment: Listening to Veronica’s odyssey in the men’s department.

Eloheim: We’ve seen that one, too. It’s a good one.

We’ve been talking for a long time now it feels like, but it’s probably only been 6 1/2 days knowing the way things have been going lately but it feels like it’s been longer than that, about January 13th and 2010 and the body and how the body and the emotional system are being ensouled and we know you’re curious about that. So we want to hit you with a little bit of that as we’re getting ready to close.

The body—the most amazing structure—over so many different expressions, consistently offering you infinite options for consciousness studies. And as we look at these different expressions of you and you start to become more aware of the different expressions of you, i.e., past lives, what we’ve been calling past lives up until now, and you start to get more of an insight about the way it has been different, what really you’re going to start to see is who you really are in a new light. It’s just like when you get into a partnership and you see that that person lets the water run while they’re brushing their teeth and you think, “I don’t do that,” and you learn about yourself through observing another. Right? You learn, just like we were talking about tonight, you learn about yourself through observing another. As you start to experience the energies of you but that aren’t you, really the glory in this is that it will start clarifying the truth of you. It starts to tell you more about yourself because it’s “Oh, those were choices I made before but this is who I am.” So it starts to teach you more and more deeply who you are, and that more and more deeply who you are is a physical, there’s a physical expression to that, there’s a physical reaction, there’s a physical interaction with that experiencing the truth of you in a new way.

You know we did the finger exercise. Now on one side of your body you’re experiencing something and on the other side of your body you’re experiencing a brand-new thing. This is kind of like bringing in the other expressions of you and then seeing what that collaborative expression of you will look like. It’s the same kind of thing but it’s based in physicality because you’re bringing in the soul’s experience into the physicality. So the bit about January, and specifically January 13th, is getting you ready to express, to express, that fullness, not just as a concept, not just as an “Oh, if I really concentrate,” not just as a mental exercise, but as a deep knowing of who you really are in all levels.

You know, if something happens in your society, let’s say people are rioting and they’re stealing TV’s out of the electronic shop, you’ve seen it on TV, it happens, the mob mentality. On some level you can sit here and say, “I will never do that.” OK, probably you wouldn’t, but that energy is part of your culture and it does happen, that mob mentality thing. But if you had a remembrance of another version of you actually doing it and then you could say, “I can see why that was done but I’m gratified that that’s not me,” that tells you more strongly who you are than simply having an idea about something and saying, “Oh, I would never do that.” So it’s as if, not only are you getting skills and talents and downloading the helicopter thing, the example we used last week, but what you’re doing is you’re saying, “Oh, this is me but it’s not of me. This is an aspect, this is a choice, this is a variety of decisions I’ve made but they are not who I am, moving forward.” Just like things you did in your 20s, you wouldn’t do in your 50s, right? It’s like, “Oh, boy, that choice didn’t lead anyplace good,” so you know you wouldn’t make that choice again. But it’s still who you are, but it tells you how you want to be, rather then becomes who you are. That’s not too subtle, right?

Let’s say when you were a kid you stole bubble gum from the store. OK, nowadays you don’t steal bubblegum from the store. So that is part of the truth of you but it’s not how you want to be going forward. And as these lifetimes start to be more and more and more a part of what you are, then more and more and more clarify who you walk as and that’s really one of the most fascinating parts of it. And you’ve done the same thing within only this lifetime by looking at habits. Habits are like this stealing gum in the previous example. “Oh, I have a habit of leaving the water on while I brush my teeth. I don’t think I need to do that anymore so I’m going to break that habit through conscious choice.”

That’s the same thing. You’ve done it on this level, but you’re going to start doing it on a greater and greater level. And part of why we wanted you guys all to pat yourselves on the back a little bit is because on some level you need to recognize that you have a foundation you’re standing on to make the next steps, taking the next steps, walking the next steps, climbing the next ladder, whatever the hell you want to visualize it as, is there’s a point where you go, “Phew! I’m out of college, now I’m going to go to graduate school.” But there needs to be a little point in time that you acknowledge, “Wow, I’ve come a long way.” And we thought telling each other would not only mirror, like Deb pointed out, but also put the vibration into the room that it’s OK to pat yourselves on the back.

And as you do the hand exercise we want you to really let yourselves see how you have changed. Maybe as you think about money, think about the most triggering aspect that money has shown you before and then maybe work it so that up the arm it’s the less triggering pictures. We don’t know exactly how to illicit from you what we know about you—that you used to be triggered all the frickin’ time and now you’re not. And if you don’t take the space to say, “That is true about me,” very few people are going to give you that. And we want you to stand on that for the next layer of things that we’re going to do together. So that’s the holiday gift we want you to give yourself, is that ability to stand on the transformation you’ve done, especially in the last year, specifically in the last six months, that standing on that place of transformation that says, “Be patient with me, I’m not finished with me yet, but I’ve come a long way baby. Be patient with me, I’m not done with me yet, but damn you should have seen me a year ago. If I think this is a mess I was one fine mess a year ago.” Right?

Emotionally, you’re going to have detox from the physical transformation and that’s why the Guardians came in tonight and did all that energy work on you guys, which we hope some of you at least could feel. But even if you didn’t, trust us, there was a lot going on. Because what they’re doing is they’re saying, “Don’t let this get in your brain.” That’s really the biggest gift they’re offering you is they’re bypassing the “got to think about it” bullshit you’ve done in the past, and they’re trying to pull out anything that’s loose. Anything you’ve just managed to loosen up. It’s like when you’re losing a tooth and it gets just loose enough that you can pull it out. Well, anything that’s sort of loose they’ll shake out of you. They’re like a 10.0 earthquake coming through the room and what they’re doing is anything that you don’t need that you’ve loosened up, they’re trying to pull out of you and get out of your system so that emotionally if you experience detox from this transformation there’s less that you will start thinking about.

Because you know when you start thinking about transformation it just puts it back in that same hopper of “I’ve got to understand it, I’ve got to do it over, I didn’t do it right,” and all of that crap. So if you loosen it up through breaking habits and dealing with your core emotion and all of the tools we’ve given you, “I don’t anything” and “What’s the truth of me,” and it loosens up and they come through and just swipe it out of there, then you didn’t have to think about it. And that’s a really big gift. You guys understand that not having to think about letting go of something like that, especially, and here’s sort of the bow on the package, because you know it’s Christmas time, and even if don’t believe in Christmas we still believe presents are fun and bows are pretty.

Here’s the bow on the package. The other expressions of you, as you shake things loose, you free those other expressions of you to not have to carry those energies either. And if they can strip out that stuff it gets stripped out across the expressions of you, and then you don’t have to think about it or think about it or think about it. And then when you have the collapse of the lifetimes there’s less mental processing that you’re going to be tempted to do. It’s pulling it out across the lifetimes. Because without getting into a lot of quantum physics crap right now, because we’re not going there, we’re just going to phrase it like this. You’re in charge. You’re in charge of the collapse of the lifetimes. Because we’re talking to you. It’s just like when we talk about your marriages. We’re just talking to the wife, we’re only going to talk about the wife’s picture. If we were talking to the husband, we’d talk to the husband’s picture. You’re here, we’re talking about your picture. The lifetimes are collapsing into you is how we’re going to look at this and how we’re going to deal with it for now. For a while.

So when you let go of that energetic and you don’t demand understanding of it, you don’t have to think about it, you don’t have to reprocess it, it’s shaking it out of the other expressions of you as well. The nice thing is then their expression of it doesn’t become a “past life” you have to deal with in this expression of you. You understand? So that’s why when the Guardians went around the room and we said pick something big, because they’re shaking it out of all the expressions of you. Now, maybe it doesn’t come completely off. Who knows. But it’s shaking out of all the expressions of you. And a lot of things you carried from lifetime to lifetime to lifetime. Remember we used to talk about checking things off your list? Anybody who knows what we’re talking about you can tell how long they’ve been coming to the circle because we don’t say that one very often.

One of the ways we used to express this is in the beginning you came here with a list of things you wanted to do. The list of things you wanted to experience. And you have been checking things off that list for a very long time. Well, we’ve told you many times that a lot of things on that list you’ve been skipping over. Lifetime after lifetime after lifetime you’ve been skipping over them because they felt too hard. So that’s why you have big things left. The cool thing is, all that time you thought you were a slacker, the truth is you waited until you had the tools to handle them because they were big but they are out of proportion large now, because you’ve been afraid of them for lifetimes. They look like a big dragon; they’re actually just a lizard.

But if we look at the concurrent lifetime situation in those lifetimes where you’re passing them over and then you do something about it here, you free all those other lifetimes from that burden of, “I have to pass this over because I’m not strong enough to handle it.” You see how many layers this has and we’re just scratching the surface. Because you’re not actually experiencing this yet. You’re not bringing examples. We’re not moving specific energy points yet. We’re just talking in theory. That’s the kind of stuff that’s coming up, so we need you to stand on the foundation of “Look how far I’ve come,” so that when more is thrown at you or more is gathered up by you with wide open arms screaming, “Faster, faster please, I’m an overachieving lightworker!” you don’t run up against something challenging and then kick yourself back to go. You say, “I may slip back a few notches but I don’t slide all the way down the mountain because I know there’s a foundation of transformation that I’ve accomplished.”

It’s time to go. A lot of energy moved, so pay attention to your dreams and pay attention to the things that bubble up and let yourself see how those can be made into foundation—because remember, everything is fascinating. So let it bubble up, “Oh, that’s fascinating,” fascinating builds your foundation. Off we go. Goodnight.

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Here is the transcript of the 12-9-09 meeting. There is great information about the collapsing of the lifetimes here! Enjoy.

Guardians: We want—we will just do some energetic alignment for you rather than try to speak, so be sure you’re breathing.

Yes, you carry such power in your heart chakras now, that it is imperative for it to be tuned up. So we just took a few moments to keep you tuned up. We will exit now.

Eloheim: So, the Guardians are really serious about helping you all. They really are serious about it, and as you can probably tell, they have so little concept of how to interact with the physical form that they really—but they energetically really mean business around the heart chakra. So they got the clue pretty fast that talking is maybe not going to be their way of interacting with you all. So we’ll see how it goes next week, of course, but if you just see a lot of hand motions just assume it’s them until further notice because that might just be the easiest way for Veronica to hold their energy. Because it’s not so much on Veronica’s end of it. Their energy is so…how can we describe it? You’re probably curious, so we should probably do our best here. Just a moment.

It really is a sense of they’re—how should we say it?—they are operating purely in energetics. We take an energetic and translate it into words. We’ve explained that to you many times. They’re not trying to translate anything. They are just trying to interface with you energetically, but because you have brains and you have habit and we have certain patterns we’ve established here in the group we know you all are kind of going, “What the heck is going on?” So they’re trying to interface with you verbally but it’s not their cup of tea. So now that they’ve said hi a couple of times, just don’t anticipate that there will be a lot of verbal exchange but that on an energetic level they’re really committed to continuing to help you evolve the heart and power chakra balance, and to help you literally feel how emanating the heart chakra energy is in the world. Let’s just have a moment to see if the Visionaries have a message for you guys tonight. Yeah, it feels like they want to have their shot, so just a moment.

Visionaries: We really want to help you remember something tonight. We know there are lots of pressures on you time-wise and with the holidays and with all your other events and activities in addition to your general activities and events of life, that it’s challenging sometimes to remember but there’s something very important that we want to raise up in your attention so it becomes closer to the top of the list. Something to not overlook. Something to focus on, let’s say. And what we would like you to remember is that the integrity of you—meaning your soul expressing through the physical form in collaboration with your current personality, that package, that picture, that representation of experience—is accessible to you now. And we want to make sure that in the busyness of the season you don’t lose track of the reality of the moment, which is that you are accessing the completeness of you, the truth of you, the fullness of you, and you can have that be who you are in all moments.

It is so easy to fall into a habitual pattern or to go backtracking a bit because busyness gets in the way of remembering and recognizing and living from the truth of you, the completeness of you. So don’t let anything get in the way of the progress you’ve made in becoming and living the truth of you because you have made such strides we don’t want you to slip back and then have to say, “Oh well, I’ll start back up again in January.” Because remember, of course, in January we’re going to be pushing the physical form in a new way, so you don’t want to have to do both at the same time. And the opportunities that the holidays and the busyness offer for you to explore the truth of you and the completeness of you should not be missed, should not be let go off or not focused on.

So we encourage you to keep it at the forefront—stay with this, stay with this, stay with this. Don’t let it slip away from you especially, especially, especially not now, because you really are in crunch time, and it’s not crunch time as in study for finals, it’s crunch time as in everything you’ve worked for and all the attention you’ve paid to being conscious and all the attention you’ve paid to your core emotion and all the books you’ve read and classes you’ve taken have all led up to this plateau point that we’re reaching, which is a place where you start to shift the focus out of getting prepared and into the focus of “I am prepared for the next way of being,” or the next movement into the being-ness of you, the next movement into bringing the body into alignment with where you’ve taken the spiritual focus. And the Guardians have come in now to help you bring your emotional system into alignment of where you’ve taken your spiritual focus. So you have unique support in the avenue of evolving your emotional system to handle the energetics that are being put into it and you have the physical body opportunity coming on line in a new way.

So be very, very cautious that you keep the attention on “what is true now,” “I don’t know anything,” “what is the truth of this moment,” “how can I express the completeness of me.” And when you walk in the world, walk as the completeness of you. And if the completeness of you is received in a way that doesn’t feel all that great, well, recognize that the truth of the matter is that walking the completeness of you is your business. How you’re received as the completeness of you can’t be your business at this time. “I leave the house and I walk the completeness of me.” And the completeness of you, how you know you’re walking the completeness of you, is when you find yourself handling fears, handling temptations to habit, handling triggers in a new way, as you compare yourself to you over the passage of time. Is it a new way you’re handling the experiences you’re having? If yes, then you know that you have made progress to have the completeness of you fully expressed. But the keeping the completeness of you as your primary focus during this holiday season is going to be, is the greatest gift you can give yourselves and we invite you to give yourselves that gift.

Now is not the time to slack off, is what we’re trying to tell you. And it’s easy to slack off now. There’s lots of habits around the holidays and we’re not just talking about habits around how you interact with your family but we’re talking about habits around the celebrations you go to or the way you celebrate or how you feel about the celebrations. So we invite you to spend a lot of attention on “why am I doing this, why am I responding this way, what is interesting about this to me, what is habitual about this to me.” All right? Good. OK. Then we’ll go and Eloheim will come and see what else we have to talk about tonight. Good night.

Comment: Thank you.

Visionaries: Oh, you’re welcome.

Eloheim: OK, all right then. So first off, let’s talk about the Guardians. Anybody have anything they want to say about their energetic work? Did you feel it?

Comment: I felt it. I don’t usually feel my heart. What I felt was an excitement and it was lower in my body.

Comment: I felt it, too. I don’t always feel when energy work is being done on us. As I was experiencing it, I was wondering if Eloheim was going to ask about this. There was a plethora of things that went on that were very noticeable.

Comment: I felt I was centered in my body and then my throat chakra got kind of knotted up.

Comment: I didn’t feel anything. I feel swindled.

Comment: No detectable input.

Eloheim: The boys had no detectable input; the girls all felt something.
Let us just take a quick look at that throat chakra. Oh, that’s interesting. So, part of what’s going on there is that the throat chakra is going, “Oh, do we have to do anything about this? This is a big change. Are we going to have to report in? What’s going to happen next?” So you just had a little stage fright with the throat chakra business. You don’t ever have to feel pressured to share if you don’t want to, but you know we’re going to call on you anyway. [group laughter]
It just feels like the throat chakra was responding to, “OK, this is a change and how is that change going to have to be discussed.” Not even necessarily here but the idea of having to discuss that change or take that change and share it somehow was starting to kind of tickle that throat chakra, especially when you don’t necessarily feel like your throat chakra is your most powerful chakra or the most comfortable chakra.

Comment: It felt like the chakra was being cleared.

Eloheim: Good. Well the throat chakra was being pinged, let’s call it that. So let’s see how it affects each of you maybe a little bit differently.

Comment: Opening up the heart sort of hit the throat?

Eloheim: Well it does have a…there is sort of a spillover effect, and the way we’re seeing the heart chakra now is like a golden yellow light radiating off of it upward, so that would have an impact or an interaction with the throat chakra. Now, we don’t know how you guys are seeing it but we see it as like this radiation of bands of golden yellow light coming off of the heart area and then the power chakra area we see is more of almost like a spherical core of metal or mercury or something very dense and solid. In that you can count on it sort of solid way. Not as impenetrable. Solidity.

Comment: Platinum?

Eloheim: We don’t know if it’s platinum or not. For some reason mercury keeps coming because it has a fluidity to it. So it’s a solid fluid state, which is very, very interesting. But that’s the picture we keep seeing. So when the Guardians came in we just felt that yellow light just shooting up and it would have interacted with the throat chakra, so we can see where that would be.

Comment: Would that go up into the head? I’ve been experiencing odd stuff with my left ear off and on.

Eloheim: It feels like it has more to do with the weather than anything else. It feels weather-related to us.

Response: Ringing, buzzing all the time.

Eloheim: We’ll see if we can just straighten that out while we’re here. Multitasking. So what else is going on?

Comment: A lot of body changes for me. Old injuries may be getting realigned or healed or something. Fluctuating insanity. It was pretty big this week. The roller coaster of insanity and just feeling like aaaahhh. I never thought I’d hear myself say that!

Eloheim: But you’ve been experiencing that.

Comment: Yeah, just really all kind of mixed up and not feeling very centered, so it was good to feel more centered by the Guardians.

Eloheim: And when you’re in “aaaaahhh,” what is going on in your heart when that is happening to you? So, you’re experiencing that state more on a mental level? (No.) So, you are experiencing it on an emotional level. (Yeah.) And is it scaring you, or what emotion are you…

Comment: It’s kind of disconcerting. Nothing is happening in a causative way. Nothing is happening in relationship to anybody else.

Eloheim: It’s just your personal journey. (Yeah.) OK, what we’re getting at is specifically for you because of the heart thing, and the heart thing is big right now with the Guardians so, so specifically what we’re getting is, we like this word “ping” tonight apparently, it’s like your emotional system is being pinged to see how you’re going to react, to see how you’re going to react, to see how you’re going to react. So there’s this sense of, “Let’s see what this reaction is,” and so what we’re going to request of you or recommend to you is whenever you have these varying levels of insanity or whatever the clever language was that you used, that you ask yourself, “How does this make me feel? How does this make me feel?” Or “How do I feel about this?” And then you take that extra beat to answer the question. And start off with sad, happy, frustrated, confused, those basic words. And then see if you can take it another beat. “Does this remind me of another time in my life? Is this five-year-old Mary showing up again?” Because what we’re trying to do is in connecting you to your heart is sort out why you weren’t connected to your heart in the first place.

Response: Oh, well, I know why that is.

Eloheim: Yeah, but there’s going to be different sections of your life that are going to appear as different things get pinged so what we’re trying to do is disconnect five-year-old Mary from running the current Mary show.

Response: I did an exercise recently where I wrote out a chronology of my life and put little signposts into the chronology concentrating on what the significant events were.

Eloheim: We had a sense something like that was in there, because we could see these little pictures. So when you get pinged, whether it’s a job thing or whatever it is, when you get pinged, what we’re looking for is, “How does this make me feel and when did I feel this way before?” And then make sure that the reaction to the ping is you, not the how-you-felt-before person. So it’s not 10-year-old 16-year-old, 25-year-old Mary. It’s currently recognizing that “Yes, I felt this way before,” and acknowledging that “I don’t need to react from her. I react from now.”

This is an extension of the thing that we talked about— don’t let the past or the future influence the moment—but this is more of a specific tool that maybe will work for some of the rest of you but will specifically work for you, we feel, to give you that… Because of the way your brain is set up, it’s more likely that you’re going to be able to point out a moment in your life when you did feel that way before. And if you can remember it you can cut it off so that you’re using all of your grown-up tools to deal with it rather than unconsciously or habitually reacting to it from your little-kid tools, which is basically a doll or a truck or something. There’s just not that many good tools from the five-year-old perspective. So habitually the five-year-old is running a lot of the show—not just in you but in a lot of people—especially this time of year. So we want to interrupt and say, “I know I feel the way I felt when I was five, but I am not letting the five-year-old handle this.” It’s a big challenge sometimes. Does that make sense? Your eyes are bright about that. You like that one?

Comment: I like that one a lot. And this week is going to be a roller coaster ride for me, too. It’s really helping me be more conscious of the things that I want to move on in my life.

Eloheim: Sometimes when we have tools—well, we’ve always told you that we’re putting energetics into words, but sometimes there’s a picture and that picture is that we just see the five-year-old sort of holding up a stop sign saying, “Stop!” And you turn and you say, “I’m 50. Why are you telling me to stop? Why is the five-year-old in me saying stop when the 50-year-old is saying I’m excited about this or I’m ready to do this differently or I’m ready to open my heart or I’m ready to do what I need to do for me?”

Comment: Well, it never got resolved back then.

Eloheim: Well, now is a good time to resolve it.

Comment: It’s been interesting to just feel chunks just fall away and it’s over and I know it’s over. It’s like, what was that? Doesn’t matter.

Eloheim: Be really careful you don’t try to figure out what that was. There’s absolutely no reason to go looking for what that was. It’s all about, “Oh good, that’s gone. Oh good, that’s gone.”

Comment: Otherwise you hold onto it.

Comment: Or you bring it back.

Eloheim: Well, what happens is you can bring it back, like Heidi said, but almost more icky is that you kind of drag it along behind you. Worse than having it actually as a part of you, you’re sort of dragging it because you’re still interested in it, you’re still curious about it. It’s like ending a relationship but still being curious about what that person is up to. Well that relationship’s not over and it can drag on you. It can pull on your energy. And that relationship can be a relationship with a man, a woman, a partner, but it can also be a relationship with opinions, habits. What did we call that? The morbid curiosity. We’ve got just this morbid curiosity about “I wonder what’s going on with so-and-so.” Well, you’re so powerful these days that you could bring so-and-so back in, but there was a reason that so-and-so left in the first place in most cases. Maybe one out of a 100 it’s OK if so-and-so came back, but you’re holding 99 of them close by, too. And a lot of times you kind of make up these little fantasies about how it was. “Oh, it was so good.” It’s like oh, yeah, but did you forget all this other stuff like the reason why that’s not in your life anymore? And that also can be around things like drugs and alcohol, sugar, things that you’ve found don’t serve you very well and now all of a sudden you’re thinking oh well it’s the holidays so I’ll have a couple of glasses of wine. It can be around a lot of things. It’s not just people but it’s mostly people.

Eloheim: How’s your ear feel Randy?

Comment: Better.

Eloheim: We wanted to ask you guys about the thing that the Visionaries brought up last week about the idea of being your complete self even if it’s not reflected to you or appreciated to you or even seen. How’s that gone down?

Comment: It’s hard. I was conscious of wanting to go into the habit of core emotion and say, “Oh, I want these people to like me, so I’ll tell them what they want to hear instead of speaking my truth.” But I stopped myself, and didn’t do it.

Eloheim: It’s walking that truth all the time that we want to…well, the Visionaries spoke about it tonight. But we also want to remind you guys, you know you get ready to go out of the house and these days you put on your hat and your gloves and your scarf and your jacket or whatever you put on, you got to kind of plan ahead a little bit more because it’s cooler out, and we would invite you to make sure that as you pick up your purse and your keys or your wallet or whatever you pick up as you get ready to leave the house, that another thing you do is to say, “OK, am I ready to be my complete self in the world?” It’s like another thing you can put on or remind yourself of, and it’s not so much an action. It can be when you get into a conversation with someone, of course. But it’s more an inner awareness that you aren’t going to be small for anyone, that you’re going to be asking yourself what your truth is and then acting on it like Randy shared, so that you’re taking the truth of you into each moment for you, not for other people, for you.

Take your truth into the moment for you, so that as you walk your truth you’re getting practice. We really want you to have a lot more practice at walking your truth, and as you’re in interactions with people when you start to recognize you’ve slipped out of walking your truth, that’s one of those times when maybe you trot off to the bathroom or you just take a deep breath and say, “OK, I can see where habit has crept in here,” or “I can see where I’ve shifted out of my complete truth, and I don’t need the truth of me to be ratified or reflected by anyone else in order for it still to be the most important thing in my life.” And that’s the tricky bit. That’s the tricky bit. Because you’re used to the rest of the world confirming to you what’s important to you. It’s that tribal thing. You’re used to everybody agreeing because that feels safer. So when you go out into the world and you’re telling the truth of you and maybe other people don’t get it, it’s really easy to slip into fear and feel threatened by that. And, of course, that’s why we had so much work on fear and biological response, so you can say, “Is it really true that this person disagreeing with me is something I have to be afraid of or is it just that this person disagreeing with me means that I have a biological response I have to monitor?”

[to group member] You look like you’re trying to be a turtle! We want to see you spread your wings, not shrink down like a turtle. Do you guys want to know about something that’s coming?

Comment: Yes!

Eloheim: We had a suspicion you’d say yes, but God, we had no idea it would be like, does anyone want three million dollars? Yes, please!

Comment: I’ve been reflecting a lot on what’s been changing in me because a few weeks ago, I was really craving an “atta girl.” Then one of you guys did it, and I was really grateful. It’s been causing me to reflect on self-truth and I think that probably all of us have changed a lot more than we really realize because most of the time it’s really, really subtle.

Eloheim: That might actually be a really nice thing to do here in the holiday season for each other. Maybe next week we’ll have a little bit of that, where if you have observed someone who’s made significant shifts in how the stories you’ve heard them tell or the things they’ve told you personally, it would be a genuinely helpful thing to acknowledge that out loud to each other and also to give yourself that credit, as well. So, maybe next week…we’ll give you guys a little bit of time to stew on it. Maybe next week we’ll go around and we’ll say OK, one for the group and one for yourself. Where do you feel like you’ve changed and where do you see someone in the group who’s changed?

And you know, what’s really nice about something like that is because we’ve told you for so long it’s comparing yourself to yourself that really matters. We’re not giving out grades here. It’s yourself to yourself that we’re really wanting to look at. But sometimes it is hard to see yourself clearly, or it does give you a little bit of an “atta girl” to hear someone else say, “You know, I’ve noticed that this is the way you used to ask about this or this is the way we used to hear about your x, y, z and now we hear it a different way.” So if you guys have examples of that we could do it now, but why don’t we wait until next week? But it’s good to think about it because it’s actually good for you to consider how you know you are different. We’ve been after you for a long time to pat yourselves on the back and enjoy some of these plateaus you’re in. So, this is a good idea. Thank you for sharing that, Mary.

We think that’ll be an interesting homework assignment for you. It’s kind of that time of year where you appreciate each other with gifts. Well, here’s a nice gift you can give each other is the gift of acknowledging. And if you feel shy about it or let’s say you might have more than one, you could write it down and we’ll pass notes. So don’t feel like you have to have a certain format. If you see that happening in more than one person and you want to acknowledge them, make a little note. Pass them around. Whatever happens. Whatever makes sense. We could just break up into little pairs and you guys could talk all night. We don’t care. You don’t have to do it any old special way. “You know, when you get triggered by your core emotion, you really changed. You really changed how your core emotion triggers you. I’ve noticed you really have sunk in on the idea of you can’t have change without change.” It’s interesting to think about. We hadn’t looked at it that way, so it’ll be entertaining for us, too.

OK, this is our little gift to you guys. You guys deserve a gift. You’ve worked so hard. This “what is true now” thing has been just an ass kicker, hasn’t it?

Group: YES!

Eloheim: [laughing] As Sue transcribes, “The entire group shouts yes!”

We’ve realized that the “what is true now” and the “I don’t know anything” have just been ass kickers and you guys have really been troopers about it. You haven’t given up, you focused, you keep coming, you keep showing up and saying, “It’s a roller coaster and it’s hard and I this and I that,” but you sign up for it again and again and you keep doing it and we see that. So we decided that it would be fun to tell you about something that’s coming maybe a year from now, maybe a year and a half from now. This is part of that 2012 thing. God, the anticipation in the room just got so huge. It’s like we haven’t felt you guys this excited since there were brownies. You guys are like on a sugar rush without the sugar.

We’re just trying to figure out where we want to enter it. Let’s start with a little bit of physics. We’re just going to say it’s true for now. This is a good explanation of it, that the way the past life thing is really going on is this: You’re really experiencing all your lifetimes simultaneously. That’s not a big surprise. We’ve shorthanded it to past lives many, many times because it’s just been easier. It’s easier to stay within the concept of time, but we’re starting to lose the need for that easiness. At some point you stop studying algebra and you start studying calculus.

Now, so we have this idea that all of your lifetimes are happening simultaneously, because there’s no such thing as time and that the reason that you perceive these lifetimes are occurring at different geological times and historical times like 1462 is Atlantis and things like that, is simply your mind finding a way to cope with information that it’s received. It has just made sense to say that it’s a past life thing. It was a shortcut, a language shortcut. But if we start looking at the fact that lifetimes are all going on simultaneously and we start owning that truth and letting it be that understanding is overrated and we don’t know anything, so our minds do not have to explain to us how that’s possible. So this is, we can’t tell you this information unless you guys can skip over the need to have it explainable. Right? Are we all on the same page?

So given that sort of introduction and the idea that that’s kind of what we’ve got going on here, as your lifetimes are being experienced and expressed and lived, a lot of times when we talk to you guys about past lives that you’re showing us it’s because those lifetimes are expressing similar things to what you’re expressing now. So that’s why a lifetime will be lit up and you may have 100 and one or two are specifically lit up right now. Well, that’s because the you in that lifetime is experiencing and expressing something similar to the you now, and transforming the energetic of that transforms it here; or in a sense you’re collaborating, because you are the same soul, so you’re doing a collaborative effort to transform an energetic that both of the lifetimes are dealing with. We’ll just call it two for now. At some point your awareness of those other lifetimes—they also can be called other universes, they also can be called other dimensions, we haven’t settled on exactly how we want to express the terminology—but at some point, your awareness of those other expressions of you is going to become as obvious to you as your awareness of your current expression. So your experience of your past, which is something that occurred to you but is not currently happening, will be a similar way of perceiving the lifetimes that the other expressions of you are having. So you’ll have memories of things that didn’t actually occur and information that you never remember getting.

So, that awareness or that opening to the other lifetimes, some language that’s been put into that is called the collapse of the lifetimes. Now, collapse is one of those triggering kind of words, like deadline, that you guys get all freaked out and think, “Oh, ‘collapse,’ it’s a building, it fell down on me.” No, we don’t mean it that way. It’s like a condensing. Like let’s say one lifetime is here and one lifetime is here spatially, they’re just getting closer together. We’re trying to express something that doesn’t have a spatial element in a spatial way. Just trying to give you some way of groking it, some way of pulling it all together.

Now remember, you don’t have to understand this. It’s an experiential thing. There’s no way for your mind, especially now since it’s not happening yet, to have a conceptualization of this that will support it happening. If you try to get all brainiac about this, you’re going to put barriers in the way of it occurring because it occurs naturally, just like your skin if you cut yourself it heals. This is like the healing of a soul expression. Now, if you think about it—without trying to understand it, that’s funny—if you process it with your brain without trying to understand it, what we’re seeing here is that we’ve told you many times the soul is an infinite, immortal experience and if you’re infinite and immortal are you really going to be satisfied with ascending one lifetime? Why would you just ascend Randy or Mary or Marilyn if you could ascend every single expression that your soul has had on the planet at one time? So that’s really what you’re doing, is you’re coalescing, collapsing, condensing the simultaneously experienced lifetimes into an ascension process that brings all of them into ensoulment simultaneously.

Comment: It’s all energy anyway, so it’s kind of easy to grok that.

Eloheim: The challenge comes when you become aware of another version of you, which in the past we’ve called a past life but now we’re just saying another version of you, that you don’t like. The rapist or the murderer or the bigot or the child beater. That’s why all this work you’re doing in neutral observation, in “I don’t know anything,” and “understanding is overrated,” “what’s the truth of me,” all that stuff that we do all the time is because you are getting really good at it in this lifetime, under these circumstances, so that when you start to become aware of these condensed lifetime information coming in, you will be able to embrace the information without it telling you who you are. It informs you but it doesn’t tell you who you are.

Just like if someone said to you, “I think you’re really fat,” you could say, “OK,” or “I think you look better with green hair.” “OK.” It’s information that doesn’t tell you who you are unless you decide to let it tell you who you are. So you’re becoming the gatekeeper of the truth of you. You are the gatekeeper of the truth of you. So when the information comes from the past life or the other life that says, “I’m kind of an asshole and I’ve cheated people out of their bread money,” you can say, “I am so pleased to see that that learning did not have to be repeated in this lifetime, that I was able to be the captain of the Ascension ship without coming from that expression.” But you’ve all done it. Any nasty thing you can think of, you’ve all done, and we’ve been telling you that for years.

So, as these lifetimes start to coalesce in you they’re going to start feeling more like memories than anything else. You’re going to maintain the head-of-the-ship position. That’s the benefit you get for being the one—oh goodness, we can’t say it like that because that involves time. How can we express this? We’re skipping that part. You’re just going to have to take our word for it for now, and we know that some people will be really dissatisfied with that. Oh, well. Can’t help you. We have to only give you what we can give you. We’re already stretching it a little as it is.

So for now, let’s just take it as you are the captain of this ship and all of this information that’s coming in as these lifetimes start to get closer and closer together will likely feel like memories and these memories may remind you of times that you don’t particularly like, but you know how to deal with memories you don’t particularly like. We’ve been studying that for seven years together. You can transform your experience of them, you can evolve them, you can make permutations of how you experience it. So it’s information but it’s not telling you who you are. It’s only giving you insight. Like we talked about earlier. Is the five-year-old making the decision or is the 50-year-old making the decision. That’s up to you. So, is it going to be you making the decision with your tools or is it going to be the guy over here that you had as an alternate version of you who’s kind of a jerk?

Comment: Fascination.

Eloheim: Yes, fascination is going to save your asses on this one. That’s why we’ve been teaching you about fascination for a long time and saying neutral observation, “I don’t know anything,” “what’s the truth of me now,” “this is fascinating,” “it’s not something I’m not going to judge, there’s no right, wrong, bad, good, up, down. It’s all expression of me that’s fascinating, and what am I experiencing in this moment with my soul’s insight about this information?” Because remember, your brain comes up with five ideas, your soul comes up with five million.

So, all these tools that we’ve been assembling—one after the other, after the other, after the other, you can see how they’re really going to be needed, and there will be more before we get there. But this is the future of the ascension process. Your soul is so much more than you have been able to conceive of. And that ensoulment or ascending of the alternate versions of you—and we’re just talking about the real obvious alternate versions of you. There’s all kinds of other stuff that we’d have to get into more physics about that we’re not going to touch tonight. But let’s just assume that each of you has 100 versions of you. It’s really more like an infinite number but they can be categorized into about 100 versions of you. That’s probably as far as we want to go.

Question: With these memories that we will be experiencing do you anticipate us having the abilities that come along with these memories?

Eloheim: Yes, that’s the bonus part. If you have to put up with your murderer past life dude, chick, whatever, then at least you should get to learn how to fly the helicopter, too. But again, here we go, you’ve got to use your tools. Because the temptation is that you’ll believe that you’re a shitty person more than you’ll believe you can fly a helicopter without ever taking any training. The temptation is you’re going to believe all the negative things that were said about you as a child over a hundred different variations of you, rather than experience the empowerment and the strength that the other expressions of you have.

This is that other practice that we’re doing. This is why “what is the truth of me, what is true now,” has been so important is because you are literally divining your true nature so that as more information comes in, superhero powers, energetics, telepathy, teleportation, being able to see auras, being able to experience other people’s energy, past life, future life energy coming in, all of that could very easily swamp your boat. So it’s being able to divine “what is true now for me” and where do you get the grounding force of that question is the connection to your soul that you’ve been developing by “what is true now, what is true now, what is true now.”

So just as you’re letting go of all the stuff that doesn’t feel true and valid in this moment for you, it’s the sculpture thing we’ve been talking about, in essence your block gets bigger and bigger as these lifetimes coalesce, but you are so much better at cutting through the bullshit, you can really slice away anything that’s not high-vibrational, anything that doesn’t support you, anything that doesn’t add to who you want to be. So really, you’re cherry-picking all these different expressions of you to bring together the ensouled being that will go through the ascension process.

So Donna, we said we’d give you a present. We don’t know how much you like that present.

Comment: It’s interesting. It’s the weaving together all of the experiences into something more cohesive.

Eloheim: Well, what’s interesting too is that Veronica was just asking us about the body thing and what’s interesting about this is if you start to experience yourself as someone who has a different shape of body or a different kind of body or a different expression of body then all a sudden you know the energetic pattern of that body. So that makes it easier then to replicate that changed body pattern in the physical. If you’ve done something before, it’s easier to do it again than to start from scratch. And if all of a sudden you’re like, “Oh, that’s what it feels like to have a strong back. Oh, I can feel that way.” It’s like body memory. The other day Veronica was playing the drums with the band and she was trying to teach herself how to do one thing with her right hand and do a different thing with her left hand. It’s like patting your head and rubbing your tummy. Drummers do this all the time, apparently. So, she was trying to teach herself how to do it and once she did it, she could do it again. It took a while to get it, but once she got it she could do it again. It’s that muscle memory. So it’s like, “Oh, now I know how to do that, now I know how to do that.” That’s another aspect of this coalescing of the expressions of you is you’re going to go, “Oh, all this time that’s how it’s been done.”

Question: How many of us are going to be doing this?

Eloheim: Why do you want to know the answer to that question?

Response: Because when I do this, I will have all of us here, but I don’t think that I’ll be able to communicate well with other people.

Eloheim: We wouldn’t be surprised if it’s a little bit difficult to socialize with people who have no clue.

Comment: Will it be outside of this group?

Eloheim: Oh, well, the people who are ascending are ascending.

Comment: I know it’s a big process out there in the world and it’s all over the world but I don’t find a lot of it around except in here.

Eloheim: It’s something that’s available to everyone but it requires an attention, a desire, a focus—it’s an option. Right now you could learn to belly dance. There’s a class going on probably today that you could drive to and learn to belly dance.

Response: If I wanted to.

Eloheim: Exactly. So anyone can do it that wants to. There are no barriers other than your desire and your consistent attention to it and your willingness.

Response: Well, I want to. So will this happen gradually over the year or will it be like six months from now. It is starting. I know it’s starting.

Eloheim: It’s OK. It’s OK. It’s OK. This is one of those things that we don’t always give you guys a big heads-up about what’s coming because then your brains turn on you go, “Oh my God! I don’t understand!” We’re not trying to freak you out. This was supposed to be a present. It’s Christmas time!

Response: These are normal questions.

Eloheim: Well, they are normal questions but what we’re trying to get at is don’t ask those normal questions. Just keep using your tools and know that this is an evolutionary process and it’s a part of the evolutionary process of ascension that’s going to be coming along. So when it starts to happen you won’t be shocked.

Response: Well I won’t be shocked.

Eloheim: OK. So don’t be afraid of how it’s all going to sort itself out. Just allow yourself to be in the process of it and as it starts to happen you can say, “Oh yeah, that’s that thing that Eloheim told us back at Christmas time in 2009.”

Response: Oh, just sort of forget about it?

Eloheim: We think that it might be comforting if you forgot about it a little bit. We’d rather you forget about it then think about it. We’d rather you experience it first, but if you have to think about it then…

Response: I do have experiences that I can’t explain.

Eloheim: Well, you all do, and we would recommend you just skip that part.

Response: It’s very hard.

Eloheim: Yes, we know, but if you think about it too much…

Response: It just roadblocks it.

Eloheim: We’re not even needed tonight. She just knows all the answers. It roadblocks it. If you think about it too much then the mind will put it in a box. And do you know what box the mind puts it in? “That never happened. I must’ve been half-asleep. Maybe I was dreaming or maybe that shrimp was bad.” The mind will find a way to make it invalid. The soul’s connection …

Response: My mind kind of likes it, though. It doesn’t want to reject it. It doesn’t.

Eloheim: Let it be fun. Let it be fascinating. Let it be interesting. Let it just show you what it’s got. Show me what you got, that kind of thing. But it can be kind of shocking. So if it’s shocking, anybody who maybe doesn’t like it, Donna does. The best example we have is Veronica told you guys that all of a sudden she just smells people who aren’t there—random smelling of other people. So that can be a little shocking and you can start to think, “What’s wrong with me?” Well, we’d invite you to know that something’s right with you when stuff like that, weird stuff, starts to happen. And then just say, “That’s interesting, that’s fascinating,” observe neutrally, “what can I learn about this, what other color crayons didn’t I see about this before?” So that if your mind wants to explain it, justify it, replicate it, you tell it to take a hike. It’s, “Oh, that was neat, wow, that was neat.” You’re going to have to get more comfortable with experiences being one-offs, just “Wow, that was really cool that happened. That was really fascinating.” And not needed to always be there. Not needed to be part of you all the time. Just let it be fascinating. Let that door open, see what’s on the other side, let it shut, let it open, see what’s on the other side, let it shut. The mind wants replication, the mind wants consistency, constancy, and certainty.

Remember that thing—insight and clarity are where? In the moment. Insight and clarity in the moment, connection to your soul, what is true now, what is the truth of me in this moment, understanding is overrated, neutral observation, fascination. That’s how you make space for these things to occur. If you start boxing them around you’re just going to cheat yourself out of some cool stuff. Shall we just leave you with that bombshell and send you off with a bombshell?

Question: Why, have you got another one for us?

Eloheim: Anytime anyone out in Internet-land wonders why we call you guys overachieving lightworkers, just rewind to this night and play the last three minutes. We leave you with a bombshell and you want another one right away. Like, “I’m not even going to think about that bombshell. I want another one. Give it to me, give it me.” What an interesting night.

Comment: One quick question about the weather. Is there anything we can as a group to help with it?

Eloheim: We always say use the weather for what it shows you, so what is it telling you, what is it showing you, what is it giving you, what insight is it offering you? The weather, we’ve always just looked at it, your weather has to give-and-take right now, and it will continue to give and take in unusual ways as the entire system’s energetic is getting shifted all the time. So the weather is one of the ways that that shows up. So just let it teach you. Let it teach you. Veronica says it teaches her she likes to be warm even more than she thought…ah, we could tell stories. You guys would laugh all night. But we’re not going to.

Good night everybody.

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